Looking at the golf ball 

Golfing 

Holiday Programs

this mite be the shortest entries as I have to rush to work now. I haf been working at IHC most of the times and now is the holidays for the primary and secondary kids. So my job is to bring them out (field trip, e.g) I went to the gym on monday and tuesday. 2 days inthe row..and after that I brought them to the aotea lagoon whatever they call. I had a great fun there..but more fun was seeing the smiley happy faces on each of the kids..what can be more happier than seeing happy faces?

First time in the month..finally

finally first time in the month, I had the chance to buy a new pair of shoes..a sneaker..i really wanted a sneaker..my previous sneaker has a hole inthere so i cant wear it in rainy days..sad..i really lurveeee the shoes..oh well..now at least i haf a new pair..yey..cost me arnd 190 NZD heheh..crazy me to buy a new shoes.in that price..what the heck i lurve it anyways..

havnt really got a chance to take a foto of my room..will do it one day..when im not tired enuff :)

finally..got a pendrive

my cute pendrive..heheh on the laptop

one of my precious things in the world

my laptop..precious

my fav spot in the room

my fav spot; where i hang all my stuffs

addicted to Nike

my new shoes

new life..new beginning

finally i have moved to my own place..the place where i can all "my own". been dying to live by myself and now yeah it has been achieve :)

i lurrrrvvee my new place..i didnt realise i had so many stuffss when i moved it from my old place to my new apartment..took me 2 trips backnforth..by time i got there, i can see the manager or the building was smilling at me..well particularly to my stuffs.. he must have been wondering..where shud i put all those stuffs in my room? well my room isnt that big tho..but not that small either..jsut nice to a single person like me :)

updates

nothing much to write actually..have been thinking what to write.don really haf any grat ideas to state here..lemme seeeeeee..what have i been doing beside spending my time working??

...cant think of any..how pathetic my life has been??well not really..finally had my day off last weekend..pheww..catchup with an old friend who just returned from Malaysia for hols..lucky her..i want that as well..thank god i will haf that soon :)

uni finally starts yesterday..but my clasess officially start today..well lucky me i have morning classes this trimester (even tho I am not a morning person) but bcoz i am working in the afternoon..haf no choice but to wake up early..oh well fair enuff..at least i can work..spending time with kids..yeay!!

moving to my new house tomorrow..yey..cant wait ro rearrange everything..its like i have been planning what i want to do with my own flat..finally haf my own space..i lurve that..i can do whatever i want..even tho the flat is smaller than the old place i used to live but i dont mind as long as i am happy

well i think ibetta off to bed..tired now...long day...got class tomorow

How Do People See You?

Slow and Steady

Your friends see you as painstaking and fussy. They see you as very cautious, extremely careful, a slow and steady plodder. It'd really surprise them if you ever did something impulsively or on the spur of the moment. They expect you to examine everything carefully from every angle and then usually decide against it.

How Do People See You?

your japanese name

Your Japanese Name Is...

Dai Aburakoji

What's your Japanese Name?

on his very last day with me

just us


me n michael


..finally he has left me crying deep down inside..finally he has found a home..finally he has found someone who will take care of him dearly..even though i am sad but i am happy for him and will love him unconditionally...hope he will remembers me as I will always remember him..

TOP 10 REJECTION LINES BY WOMEN

TOP 10 REJECTION LINES BY WOMEN and what they actually meant:

1. I think of you as a brother. (You remind me of that inbred banjo- playing geek in "Deliverance.")

2. There's a slight difference in our ages. (You are one jurassic geezer.)

3. I'm not attracted to you in *that* way. (You are the ugliest dork I've ever laid eyes upon.)

4. My life is too complicated right now. (I'm waiting for a rich sugar daddy.)

5. I've got a boyfriend. (I've got a vibrator.)

6. I don't date men where I work. (Hey, bud, I wouldn't even date you if you were in the same *solar system*, much less the same building.)

7. It's not you, it's me. (It's not me, it's you.)

8. I'm concentrating on my career. (Even something as boring and unfulfilling as my job is better than dating you.)

9. I'm celibate. (One look at you and I'm ready to swear off men altogether.)

10. Let's be friends. (I want you to stay around so I can tell you in excruciating detail about all the other men I meet and have sex with.)

my baby

my little mickey



cutey mickey



me n michel

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

*to someone who used to be special in my life*

typical days for me :)

typical days for me..work work work..people (who are closed to me) have been complaining about me being workhaholic. hardly seen me around..well sorry guys..is not like I dont want to hang out but I don't see where's the point to hang out when work comes first (that's for me now). I love spending time with those kids at work. they make me happy than hanging arnd with those maniacs (not you guys ok. You guys know who I mean aye!!).

Have been working more than 20 hours a week! just imagine how many hours of sleep I have lost since I started working. Apparently I found it weird..coz I dont complain much about not having too much sleep!! coz I enjoy the work I am doing. kids are very important in my life. I dont know..i feel like lending them an extra hand does makes a different. I don't care about what people said about my job or the kids..in fact I love them more :)

speaking of that, one of the kids are leaving this thursday. the kid I have been taking care of since the day he arrived :(..i call him my baby..he's 2 and half months and he is so cute. I love spending time with him..he's cute and beautiful..what's wrong with him? well he's an intellectual disability/development but what the heck, its not his fault he has the conditions. no one to blame. everything happens for a reason :) anyways..he is sucha beautiful thing. very cute. now hes starting to walk by himself. oh ya!! his name is michael but i call him "little mickey". he likes to smile alot..laughing and drink a lot of milks..a lot infact :) hehehhe..gosh i sound like i wan to have a baby!! noooooooooo..freak me out..anyways..he's leaving this thursday coz they support worker has found him a foster family. *sob* so he will be leaving with his foster parents well foster mom to be exact. the foster mom is one of the worker at IHC. Lucky her..I wish I have the oppoturnity to be micheal's mom..oh well i dont think i can that responsibility yet. its too big for me at the mo :)

i dont know if i can see him leaving the base. i have been taking of him ever since he arrived at the base. i know every second he moves and what he is doing..when is he gonna have his nap n his milk. and three reasons why he cries :(( *sob* i will miss him esp in the middle in the night he wakes me up jsut because he wants milk or his nappy is wet. :( im emotionally attached to this kid. really! in fact i am emotionally attach to all the kids at the base. they are so pure and beautiful. (damn i am being too emotional and sensitive now).

well..i got hit from one of the kids yesterday nite because he has been having headche and sore-teeth. his wisdom teeth is coming out so he has been grumpy all the times. he hit people yesterday. first he pinched me my thighs ( och) then he pulled one of the kids's hair and my collegues and pinched my another collegues on his stomach (twice) OUCH..i dont think he did on purposed. he was trying to take out his pain to someonelse's. i know how painful the wisdom teeth pain is. had mine ages ago..but i know the pain tho' thats y i don mind he pinched if that helps him to feel better. that wasnt the first time i got hit tho. yesterday was the ..i dont know how many times..haf bruises on my feet coz got A kicked from the kids before..i feel like all the kids like to take out all the angry stuffs on me not to my collugues..hardly see them being beaten up or they never told me? or i am the choosen one to be beaten up for the hyper-active kids? dont know *sob* it's ok..not their fault anyways..well at least i dont get all those bitten from the kids...one of my collegues used to be bitten from the autism kids..wow..that must be painful..dont want that!! *a big NO NO*

moving out from the plc i am currently living in..moving to 169 the terrace on 5th july but will be staying with christy for a week or so..coz her husband will be going to OZ soon so just want to hang out with her..accompany her :) sweet'as

have a nice weekend..--back to packing up :)

mine mine mine!!

Your Birthdate: February 21

Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

when things get worse, what should you do? Run away from it, or face it like a warrior?

in my case, be in between, neither run or face. sit quietly and ignore it. let by gone be gone. no point to think of it coz its not yours anymore.

::buRN::

What Have I been Doing lately??:

1. Haven't had one day off since last week. Worked worked everyday until Sunday. Started to do sleepovers already. (sleepovers is when you stay one nite there to take care of the kids whom are sleeping at the base).

2. Lost weight coz haf no time to eat properly. Everytime I get home, I end up lying on the bed and fall asleep.

3. Being so damn broke coz just bot myelf a Laptop. Pentium 3-HP laptop. Bot it @ the cheaper price. NZ$300-from a friend who went back to Hong Kong. Still in the very good conditions. Wicked.

4. Been telling myself to book the app at the salon to get my hair trim. BUt since haf no time to do it, now my hair even grow longer.

5. Once in my lifetime, Afzul (my brother) called me personally to talk abt things. Wah shocking! he hardly calls me.. anyways thanks for being there for me brother love ya!

6. My mom called me twice on Monday and that was shocking too! she neva calls me twice in one day but now she had..im ok mama..don wori abt me. Life goes on..love ya!

7. i miss papa..really much

8. I miss home..really do..miss my little brothers bck home..really homesick at the moment. Luckily I am working involving children, so at least the feeling of missing my brothers gone a bit.

9. Been working my ass 24/7 these days n really like it even tho i feel tired sometimes..need a break like everybodyelse..but i guess life doesn't always treat you rite :-)

10. Chatted with my step-father yesterday and he told me my desktop has broken. the hard-disk has broken..NOOOO..all my pictures and songs have gone..my videos i jave dloaded...wahh :(( noooooooo..even tho i hv laptop now but i love my old pc..it has bring sucha good memories in my life..i don know how it got broken..i guess il c it when i go home end of th yr..mayb bcoz of the shipping company???hmm don make assumptions ok>?? hate that :p

11. got to go to work..haf to do sleepover again today..

The girlfriends in my life :)

I have been friending with different kinds of people but in those "kinds of people", I have met these 4 awesome girlfriends who have been there for me and neva judged me in things I have done regardless wheather it is worst or good. So here are my gf's who I have loved the most (in no particular order--you guys are always the no #1 in my heart)

Marlini (Ninie)


ninie


I have known her about 3 years now and the friendship still remains stronger. SHe has been there for me through ups and down, joy n sorrow. Neva once she doubted my decisions and as a result, she will always there to support me.

She may seems so shallow and self-wallow but emotionally strong and good at managing things. She cares for people and that what makes her so sweet.

I wudnt want to trade this friendship for anythingelse. She is the sweetest person I have known and hanging out with her, neva once, makes me sad (except on the day me flying bck to NZ, of course). She can laugh and talk talk talk abt everything.

I remember those times where she was broken-hearted and I was as hard as I can to cheer her up.If only I have the doraemon magic pouch, then I cud turn back time for you.

Really miss having her around..coz She's WICKED!!

Nazratul Akma (Jer)

Jer


Met her few minutes on the day she arrived in Wgtn and neva regret to know this caring person. She has been like a sister to me in WGTN. Feed me all the times and "care about people first but me" is always her motto. She doesn't care ppl talk abt her all times bcoz she cudnt be bothered. She tresures life and always appreacite what she has.

She is the sweetest thing. Neva look bad upon people and always say what she believes. Don't talk bad about people and always be outspoken whenver she thinks thats is not the right thing to do.

I always hang out at her place and she always cook traditional malay food with improvising the original recipies. SHe enjoys cooking and feeding ppl whereas I neva enjoys cooking but love feeding ppl. Hehehhehe..

I still remember the times where both of us were really damn broke, we sat down and counted the money we both had. Even though we only had a few dollars, we both neva cared abt it and instead feed ourselves buying more food with a few dollars!!

SHe's the kinda gurl who wont leave you when you are in pain and sorrow.She always there for you. I remember the times where someone I loved left wgtn, I called her and end up crying hard-out on the fon, she tried to cheer me up. I cried all the way to her house with toilet paper and as soon as I reached her hse, she was making fun of me or fbriging the toilet paper. As a result, I end up laughing and fell asleep :P

Thank God I have met her in this boring-windy-typical Wellington or else I end up being miserable forever.


Juanita (Nita)


them

She's one of the earliest person I met in this windy city. 1st time I met her, I tot she wud be so "garang" and not-that-friendly. But turn out she's the opposite site who you can talk for hours, feed you, take care of you and listen to your stupid rubbish conversations.

She neva talks bad things abt ppl. She doesnt care abt what ppl thinks abt her and always believe whatever you, you will always have to give and take. DOnt let people take advantage on you.

I can still remember, you lent me your sweat-shirt just bcoz it was so cold outside and i had to go home. THen how you cooked me your AWESOME pasta during our lunch hour (even tho it was one hour) but still i had fun. You an awesome cook..Azhar is lucky :)

Thank to mGod, she neva lost contact with me or else, I end up losing the precious diamond in the world.

CHristy Ngeow Seow Woon (christy)


christy

This lenglui has been part of my life since the day we met in VUW. TO tell you the truth I neva really liked her (as you know you will alwiz hav this feeling on the first time you met ppl). I tot she is rude, fierce yaddi yaddi yadd but she turned out to be so charming, sweet and caring. Been ther for me ups and downs, same as me for her. From the day she met her 1st bf until the day she got married (neva tot you will get married since you are not the commit type). Maybe there is something abt damon that hv changed your mind :P

anways she is the sweetest thing. I remember the first time we hang out together. Feed ourselves with food all the times. There have been too many memories that have captured us together until now. SO many things that I dont think I want to forget.

You were the one who came to my hse after I came out from the hospital. Lepak wit me on my bed and laughed at me when I was trying to speak. And you made this awesome present for my bday. To admite, YES thats the bestest present I have ever got. Tq so much for making it. I really love that present ( I didnt even sent it bck to KL coz I want it to be with me here)

You neva cared abt your petrol whenever I asked you to help me to move my stuff all the way to JVille to Kelburn. U neva cared whenever I eat your food (cmon I eaat a lot k) whevenever I am ur hse. You always being so generous to me and I dont think I can ever pay you this. You always listen to my problems even though sometimes you look like you dont bother abt it. hehheheh

There are so many things that I can talk about you bcoz you hv been so GREAT to me. but i think I betta leave it to me. Keep it as a secret. I am so lucky to have met you. THnks for being htere for me..

::so there goes my 4 bestfriends in life. I am so thankful I hav met this people. THey are one in the millions..really appreciate them..muah2::

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?

sometimes the things that we wish for, never seemed to come true. You gotta work hard to achieve it BUT no matter you work hard, you'll never achieve aye?=)

that what happens to me. I met the person but things didnt worked out. cant blame him or the situation bcoz i guess things are not meant to be =(

it hurts so badly but life goes on. dont want to think abt it.

"ignore the consequences, face the circumstances"

bday agong :)

me n jer


me n daus


me n nal


me n el


my girfriends


me n jaz

wonder if u wake up in the morning, what is the first thing that makes u happy?

of course, the smile on your face whenever you think about him :)

kids

Since I had the oppoturnity to get money by myself, I have been learning to earn every scent that I get from the job I occupied. Before, work for me is to get money on everytime I go to work but lately I have learned. Money isn't everything. What counts is that, things that makes u happy. So I have learned.

Since I have been working at a place call "IHC" (in your community), I have not thought about money most of the times. Suprisingly, I can't wait to go to work whereas earlier in my previous job, I was so damn lazy to go to work. I love spending my times there with the kids. Hanging out with kids make me happy. I love it when they are happy. I don't even think about what time I finish coz it seems like I want to stay there forever!!

The job descriptions involve taking care of them, preparing for the breakfast, lunch, morning tea, afternoon tea and dinner, bring them out for walk, give them bath and play with them. Well it may sounds a bit too much but actually it's not. It is simple as taking care of your sisters or brother but different ways because they need a special need since some of them are in very high-need (need to be lift or can't do bathing or eat by themselves).

I love working there. It seems like I feel satisfied. I enjoy spending time with children. To have kids on my own? nah..not ready to be that responsible :) I never actually believe I am going to say this but I think my future job will be taking care disable kids. Playing with them all day long never been tired and I never found it boring. New challange everyday, (I learn new things eveyrday from them btw)New stories, new things everday. I think I am ready for being challenge coz taking care of them is the best and hard way to do! Patience is a must to work with them :)

Who's Your Celebrity Soulmate?

whoho...yummy!!!he's my celebrity crush! yey!

Busy week

Will not update this blog for this week! got 2 tests and dont have enuff time to go online..jz wanna to let u guys know..take care..thnx for reading and supporting ;)

happy birthday to dearest Elmokri razman..with love

Saturday:

evening

I went to christy's wedding..the weddding started at 4pm but i was late...the wedding ceremony took place at this begonia house at botanic garden. I dont eve know where it was..i know where is the botanical garden but begonia house?? hell no..took me half an hour to climb up and down the hill just to find the place. when my watch showed 4 pm, iw as panicked. I ws thinking, damn im gonna be late for my bestfriend's wedding. i was nearly cried but luckily i saw these 3 tourists who happend to be lost as well. But Thank god, the passed the begonia hse, so they know where it is. by the time, i reached the begonia house, the minister was talking abt the marriage life, i was relieved coz the exchanging vows hasnt started yet.

when i looked at her signing the papers, i was actually sheding to tears. I cudnt believe she is getting married and im actually witnessing it.been ther for her ups n downs..thorugh sadness and happiness..was there wen she had on/off relationships..was there when she met damon until the day they got married..im totally happy for her..and i hope her happines till hte end of time..

Night

I went to her reception at nite..by the time i got there, my feet already blister and swollen bcoz of walking up and down the hill using the high-heels. the food was great and we had a bit talked yaddi yadda...her family was there ecept her brothers n mom..they are in msia..they didnt come with the rest of the family..

congratulations..to the bride the groom n to the both families..

blunt

sometimes people can be too ignorant towards other people's feelings. They do not bother to explicit their words even though they know, the words can be harsh and rude.

whereas some can be too kind not to hurt other's. They tend to think before they act just in case their words will cross other's.

other, just don't bother..they can do whatever they want as long it doesnt gone through the boundaries.

in other words, No One is Perfect

Episode 1 : "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?

===Tree===
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everythingjust for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have makeher heart cry for 3 years. She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!"before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so. My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers. When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my breakup and she told me about her getting together. I know who's the guy. He had been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of theschool. I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too. During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?


Episode 2 : "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?

==== Leaf =====
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt -Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe byusing a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal. I like him & I know he likes me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make thefirst move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. But, If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for afriend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figureout. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right? Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, dote on him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & Ireally want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?


Episode 3 : "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

==== Wind ======

I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there.Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him. One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place,looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left. Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away. It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree. I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Everytime, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly."Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?

tired-busy-sleepy

what have I done for the past a week? hmm

Sunday-morning i woke up early at 9 am coz i had a volleyball praktis at 9 am (yeah rite)..but i was late..i had to wait for my flatmate to wake up and doing her thing blah blah and we arrived at teh rec center at 10 ish..we had to wait till the court is empty coz everyone was using the court to plap badminton..*sigh* i was practising with few friends who wwere the same boat as me to pplay volleyball..around 11 ish, we had the chance to play volleyball and guess what we played for 4-5 hours straight..damn..i was so damn tired by the time the game finished..we didnt even had a timeout..all we did was changing the court when the game ended..when ir eached home, i was so damn tired..both of my hands were swelling and i can barely moved my arms..i slept till 8 ish coz i was so damn tired..by the time i woke up was already 8ish and i felt so hungry...went to the kitchen to find some food..had a shower and went bck to sleep again untill 11 am in the morning..what the hell of the weekend :-)

Monday- i started work at IHC ( cant remember what it stand for) but it is a place for disablity kids..my work is working with them..takiing care of them and try to make them behave as i can ( i dont want them to misbehave)..some of them are hyperactive, down-sydrome, austhisms and yaddi yaddi yadda..enough of that..more important is i love working with them..they are so cute and charming..on the first day itself, i got a kiss frm one of the kids and he sed he likes me..owh that so sweet..he is charming..he likes to play rugbby with me (which reminded me like my little brother haziq)..i feel so good whenever im around them..sigh wish i can go there eveyday..

Tuesday- went to IHC for work again but this time i met few other kids who didnt come yesterday..they were just the same kids who i met yesterday excfept this one kid who screamed in the middle of the road bcoz my workmate was asking him to come inside the base..he refused to so he screamed..i can hear his voice very clearly coz he screamed so hard..he cant speak nor talk..poor him..but my workmate managed to pursuade him to come inside..good on him :-)

had a long talk with Chip yesterday nite..i havent talked to him for so long..can hardly remember when was the last time i spoke to him :-) we had a long catchup yesteryday..he sed he has been thinking and missing me..(owh how sweet of you, my dear)..thats what bestfriends are for..they never let you aside..they are always for you..they will always think about you even though you havent talked to him for so long..anyway just want to let you know chip, i do miss you a lot too even though i only sed "i miss you" but actually you were always on my mind and i miss you more too and (even though you sed you miss me more)..jz want to let you know that...take care muah2 X

argh..assingment..go to do and have to fnish it tonite..got things to do tomorrow..sigh..so tired..wish can go to bed now :-)

Relaku Pujuk-Spider

i know i am supposed to be studying rite now..its 4 am in the morning and im still awake to finish up my essay but instead i keep on listening to this song "relaku pujuk" by Spider..(one of the Malaysian band)..i dont know why but i just lurrrrrrrrrveeeeeeee this song..i seriously dont know why...i keep on repeating the song..

Relaku Pujuk-Spider

Ku dikejar bayang-bayang resah
Bila hatimu masih tak berubah
Enggan dipunya dan dipenjara
Belaian cintaku ini

Aku bukan lelaki yang tewas
Bisa mengambang walau ku ditolak
Biar diuji kanan dan kiri
Kau kan tetap ku miliki

Tiada lafaz yang lebih agung
Kalimah cintamu
Yang ku tunggu-tunggu
Biar jasadku yang menanggung
Permainan darimu
Relaku pujuk

Janganlah kau salahkan aku
Terus memburu menawan cintamu
Daku percaya sedikit masa
Kau kecundang akhirnya
Usahlah kau bersedih
Dihadapanmu aku hadir
Memadam resah dan curiga dari hatimu

Apakah kali ini
Bisa kau tolak dan berlari
Setelah aku menanamkan azimatku
Biar jasadku yang menanggung
Permainan darimu
Relaku pujuk

decisions!! Decisions!!

decisions!!!

hate doing decisionss!! but I somehwo have to do it..have to decide whats the best for me!! arghhhhhhhhhh bencinya..why is it to make good decisions have to involve emotions and heart??why cant it only involves pyshical..why why?????

im too lazy to do my work

have been staringg infront of the pc for quite a while but havent started a single sentence expect changing the fonts and the paragraph..i am so damn lazy

the weather has been so crap for the past 2 days..the sun hasnt come out since monday and i am too damn sleepy and pathetically praying for the sun to come out..cant stand living in this kinda weather..feel so unhealthy at all..

currently so damn homesick..i wan to go home so badly..feel like want to run away from this sanctuary of depression..i cannot stand being depress and stress anymore..tired of feeling like this..i wish i cud feel happy and better..the only can make me happy is when i am able to do what i want and what i feel like doing but instead i have to please people not knowing they are dont even bother about my existance..hmm wonder why?

ok ok stop talking about that..making me more depress and stress..lets change the topic..what shud i write about my essay??well its not an essay btw is just a summary of text and movie (note: i have to do 2 summaries..) well its not that hard actually..i have to summary the movie i have watched before (the last samurai). is not that hard..i know what the movie is about but my mind has been closed for the past couple of days..

i have been drinking coffee more thatn i should have..yesterday nite i drank 5 cups of coffee and i even hunger for more..what are the ingredients inside the coffee actually that makes people can be so damn high?????!! you tell me!!!?? i dont know and i dont care but i love'em..so much..if only my house is build inside the coffee beans..i wud love to drink it all day..just coffeee..!!

ok betta stop..start to talk bullshit oredi..im still high..i bet i cant even remember what i just wrote..same happend to my fren the other..wrote her a testimonial but i cant remembered what i wrote until i read it again after i was sober..damn so embarrased..so mind me..im high..
--blurrrrr--

things are better left unsaid

....oooO..............
.....(....)...Oooo...
......)../.....(....)....
.....(_/.......)../.....
...............(_/.......
....oooO..............
.....(....)...Oooo...
......)../.....(....)....
.....(_/.......)../.....
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"Some people came into our lives and
leave footprints on our hearts and we
are never ever the same...."

I want to cry but there is no more tears in my eyes
I want to give but things are hard to achieve
I want to leave but things are better to keep
I want to hide but everything seem to be a fight
I want to reach but it seems everything so hard to fit

Joy Enriquez - How Can I Not Love You

Cannot touch, cannot hold, cannot be together
Cannot love, cannot kiss, cannot love each other
Must be strong and we must let go
Cannot say what our hearts must know

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
Cannot dream, cannot share sweet and tender moments
Cannot feel how we feel, must pretend it?s over
Must be brave and we must go on, must not say
What we?ve known all along

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you

Bridge:
Must be brave and we must be strong
Cannot say what we?ve known all along

Chorus:
How can I not love you
What do I tell my heart
When do I not want you here in my arms
How does one walks away
From all of the memories
How do I not miss you when you are gone
How can I not love you
When you are gone

nice weather..ape lagi lepak ar..some more pixxs go to ikeafnifa.fotopages.com 

Some say I am nice and they like to hang out with me. Others say I am too nice and they warned people not to hang out with me. how do you feel if people do this to you? where never in your mind you have the thought of doing anything like that to other people??

Maybe some people think i am being nice just to gain some benefits from them..eh hello lar..tk ada masa nk buat mcmtu..i got other stuff to do..c'mon lar..i dnt that to live..i need sincere and honesty to live in this world..if certain people do not have that then how are they going to face the world..rite??

i dont need to impress people or treat them nicely bcoz thats not what i shud do.have had enuff impressing people til i got hurt inside..i dont want to get hurt anymore..tired of running away or getting hurt..i am jst going to do not bother what people say abt me bcause i take it as they do not know the real me..they also dont bother to hang ot with me..then why shud i bother?

When guys around me, they have the impression that I like them whereas I dont give a fuck what they are doing. When I being extra caring, they think I like them on the other hand, I am just being me and I am not pretending to impress them. let me get this straight..I dont just like a guy when i see them ok..i am not that tasteless amongst guys..eh hello..i am jst being me..i am just being myself..i dont need a guy to be nice..i am just me..if you dont like it then fuck it..i dont need people to ruin my life..guys will always be guys no matter what. how do you feel if you were in my shoes? how do you feel if you are being labelled like this? will you run away or stay knowing that you have been labelled like that? i wud stay in the middle..not running away or stay..because why should I? why should i go away just because you have heard somethng that mite not tru?

people have different perceptions towards..i dont care what people think of me..i dont give a fuck what they think..i am enjoying my life to the fullest..i love hang out and having fun..if they cant hv fun then thats not my problem..normally i just take it as ..if you cant hav fun then dont bother abt other people's life because thats your problem..go figure..

my aim is just dont bother..

weekend finally..

Yey it's weekend..the most waited days of the week...but bugge..i've got plenty of work to do so no yey! for me at least..

it's been ages since I updated my blog..(sorry papa) been busy sorting out my work..classes tutorials and work..

went to a friend's house last nite to watch this Thai-horror movie..f**k man..it was so damn scary..the movie about a girl who doesnt wan to let go her loved ones even though she's dead. the scariest part was she has been clingy at her bf's shoulder all this while..her bf felt the pain on the neck..i watched it with my friends..even the guys were scremed at it..coz it was sooo damn shcking and scary..i was hiding myself behind the pillow and the rest were under the blanket..everytime the ghost came out, we screamed together..arghh..damn horror movies..never watched the horror movie alone man..

was thinking to go to Auckland but nah...stay @ Wellington...better..besides I am saving up to buy a laptop..really desperate for it..really need it to do my work..tired of going to a friend's plc to do my work..

My flatmates 

My eyesbrow 

Im feeling so sleepy and tired today as I had netball tournamen this morning..Man I havent played the gam ever since i got my little finger twisted :-) I nearly forgot about the rules ever since I stopped touching the ball..but it was a good game..it was a tournament btwn WMSO's members..just a fun game..

I have been craving Chicken rice since last week..I dun knw why..y flatmates and friends have been shaking their heads whenever I said "hey, I rasa nak makan nasi ayam lar".. and they will be saying "You and your nasi ayam.." I seriously don't know what's got into me :-)

Sunny, Hot, health day...gud for your body..need to go and sleep now..

Too much

I have been feeling so hopeless for the past couple of days. Every little things I do, I felt so tired of it. I was supposed to complete my tutorial homework but instead I end up mingling around a friend's house. The whole idea to stay at a friend's house was to study together2 but instead we ended laughing and talking nonsense. Arghh now I have to catch up with the tutorial homework..(malu je if not siap). Hehe...pemalas..(that's what I always been referred to..and its true).

hmm..what have I done so far for the past couple of days? oh yeah..i have been reading this good book about a lost kid..hmm kinda good but kinda sad tho'. It's about the missing kid who happens to be dissapeared for about 10 years and the parents still looking for it.I don't know whether it was based on the true story or not but the storyline was quite touching tho'

Oh yeah..there has been so many shits happening arnd Wgtn(amongst my friends of course)..fightings, broken-hearted yaddi yaddi yadda..so scary.. I am trying not to get closed to any of this thing coz I afraid I might end up losing someone..hehehe..well it's not my thingy rite? :-)

The other day I went to Ninie's Blog and she wrote about me under the "girlfriends in my life". i t was so sad when I went thru it. She wrote the nicest things about me..and no one ever wrote like that about me liek the way she did it..I shed to tears when I went tru it..thank you so much for the comments..I never knew I am that kinda person.. I always see myself as clumsy, moody, selfish and unreliable..hehehe..well I guess now I know what kinda person I really am :-)

okies..betta get back to do my tutorial homework..got tutorial in less than hour..should really finish it aye..heheheh..muah2 X

The sky it was gold, it was rose, I was taking sips of it through my nose, And I wish I could get back there, Some place back there, Smiling in the pictures you would take, Doing crystal myth, Will lift you up until you break, It won't stop, I won't come down, I keep stock, With a tick tock rhythm and a bump for the drop, And then I bumped up. I took the hit I was given, Then I bumped again, And then I bumped again.

regretting

there are certain things that when you do, you can't undo..you have to accept the facts even though it hurts you. All you can do is that, accept the things even though you have apologize and apologize..gilizion times..what have been said cannot be undo..

sometimes you have to accept things the way it is..no matter how hard you try to change or reverse it. the mistakes you have made or done cannot be reversed or forgiven. That's what I feel for the past couple of days. I have done a terrible things that I cannot even forgive myself. :( no matter how many times I have apologize. All I can do is to accept the mistakes and just go with the flow.

I am accepting the fact that I have done a really bad things and I feel so embarassed to myself. I am not kids or teenager anymore. i am adult and suprisingly i am still doing things that adult won't do. I am behaving like a 15 years old girl and what was that? I am not a teenager anymore. I should've behaved like a 24 years old adult. I am still sad about what happened and I couldn't even forgive myself for that. I know I lied and I am sorry. I am terribly sorry. There is no words can express how crush you are at the moment and how regretful I am. My mistakes cannot be undo and cannot be forgiven. All I can do at the moment is to learn from my mistakes. Mistakes that I hope I won't do in near future anymore.

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A good friend of mine jz had a really terrible break-ups with her bf. When I heard her stories, suddenly my own history rewinded in my mind. I cannot believe the similiarity of the story is happening again. I mean i totally understand what's she going through. Being dumped and broke-hearted is totally not the best thing to end a relationship. Why guys are being jerks? why can't they understand a women's heart? why is it so hard to understand a guy? why are they being so hipokrit and pathetic. when they want you, they will come to you, begging and have that sweet-talk. But when they do not want you, they ignore you and dump you like you are worthless to them. urghhh!! please, dont they know the word "appreciate?" why is it so hard to say "thank you for doing this to me?" WHY? I just don't understand guys..so unpredictable

wonder

jave you ever wonder if you do something that people never tought you would you but you do it anyway and they never looked at you the same way again? I have been feeling that for the couple of days since I got my right eyebrows pierecd. Been having different cmments from friends :-) Oh well I never really care about what people say..take it like this, people can say what they want or do what they want..just dont be bothered about what they say. You rule your own life not them.They can give opinions about you but at the end, you are the one who will be the judge..right? Yes Yes

Yes it's officially I pierced my right eyebrows.

Uni starting next week and can't wait to go back to class (it's show that I am officially bored of holidays)

sick n tired

Don't you just hate being sick? Who doesnt? Dman these viruses..Guess weather keep on changing from hot to cold to misty to cold again.. Sux man..arghh..hate being sick..wgtn has been raining for the past couple of days now..

Oh yeah Malaysia Prime Minister; Dato' Seri Abdullah Ahmad Badawi came to New Zealand yesterday and had the chance to meet him in person. I got the shake hand with him and he is so charming. He is indeed very nice and soft-spoken.

Not in the mood the write more..I guess I am very tired and sick..

p/s: new photos have been uploaded..check it out at my fotopages.

party

having a party at the moment at my fren's house. we are celebrating Naqib's bday at the moment..actually his bday was on tuesday but because every1 was busy doing stuff and everything so we decided to postponed the bday party to today.:-) Happy Birthday Naqib.

I have been feeling miserable lately. I guess my closest friends have not been around and most of the people I hang out with kinda bz with their own stuff. Damn I miss Ninie . I miss haing her around. I have been feeling so sad because I have no one to hang out with and go shopping with. Is not that I do not have enough friends over here but because I guess (like I said) everyone is busy with their stuff. They do hang out with me but I feel I want to hang out wiht my closest friends. I miss having Ninie around bcoz whenever I hang out with her, I guess everything is always fine and happening. We can just sit and drink coffee for ever. I Miss doing that. I feel like I can talk to her about anything. I seriously do. I feel so lost without her at the moment. Hey gurl, I miss you damn much ok. Please come bck so that we can go jalan2.

SUnday Morning

wht a lovely sunday man..sunny and hot..seem like summer...i'm loving it:-) but feeling a bit lazy and everything..dunno i guess because had a global festival at civic square yesterday.man it was tiiring but worth a penny..lots of ppl came and buy the food. even though i wasnt incharged of anything but i was there to lend a hand.That's more important rite? :-) hehehhe..

oh yeah..the Easter break is about to come :-) got two weeks hols...man what shud I do? should I go to Auckland? or should I go to Dunnedin instead? hmm thinking..decisions decisions...someone has been asking me to go up to AUckland..arghh I dont know..i am confused...arghhhhhhh...damn it

oh yeah..today is his bday..the man of my dream..hahaha yeah rite...hehehhe happy birthday my dear..may all ur dreams come true;-)

The sign of the Dreamer-Poet, the Oculist

The weaver of dreams. Loves the mystical, the occult. Romantic, sentimental - tends to view the world through rose-colored glasses. Aspires to fame. Wallows in self-pity. Sees all, knows all - if not mistaken! Deep, psychic. A peddler of rainbows. Poetic, musical, dramatic. A martyr. Loves the sea and other liquids! Deep sympathies for self and everyone. Fatalist. Aggressive in money matters. The Master of Moods! Tender feet - but likes to dance.

Personality: Psychic and poetic, often moody, hypersensitive, impractical, secretive, kind, self-sacrificing, drifting, escapist, compassionate, gentle.

Positive Qualities: Liberal and sensitive, gentle and caring, progressive and kind, persuasive, nature-loving and imaginative, humane.

Negative Qualities: Uncertain, vague, easygoing, sometimes careless, difficult to understand, impractical, occasionally lacking in balance.

Accident-prone

I went to Uni around 3 something to pick up my passport. I was so excited to get my pasport because I renew my student visa for another a year. After I reached the place, I found out that they already close (damn). I realised that today is wednesday. I tot today is thursday (coz on thursday they open until 3.30pm but the rest of the days until 12.30pm only). So I walked back home, singing "if ain't got you" then suddenly I twisted my ankle. I didnt see there was a hole at the road. SO there goes my ankle. Got injured again..for 1000 of times..I can't even keep track how many times I have had it. Screw me

Uni has been really busy..fuh tiring dayz man..had to finish my essay by this week coz I have another one next week to due..well it's not that hard but I dont want to do last minute work again..or else I will be more screwed.

Most of my frens are busy with this GLobal festival thingy ( I don't really know aye). They have been practising dancing and cooking some food for selling on that day. Me? oh I am just helping them as much as I can..I am sux at cooking..well all I can do is cheer for them :-) help them carry some stuff aye :-)

Oh ya..My Prime Minister is coming to New Zealand on 30th March 05. Hmm it wud be interesting to meet him in Person. Its kinda exciting tho' Meeting him in person and stuff..

WLG-WGTN

I am back..just arrived from Auckland this morning..I arrived frm KL yesterday morning and a fren came and picked me up. (thank you so much, jaziri alkaf) and thank you to Jhaja's family for the overnight stay :-)

I am back to Uni..attended this afternoon..damn..nothing spesel..as usual..its so windy and cold..well Autumn has started oredi..oh well..what can i do..its the weather anyway..i feel so relived as i oredi submitted my visa today..fuh..finally :-)

Oh yeah..I have already uploaded *NEW PHOTOS* at the http://ikeafnifa.fotopages.com check it out :-) till then :-)

Vanessa Carlton - 1000 Miles Lyrics
Makin' my way downtown,
Walkin' fast,
Faces pass and I'm homebound.

Starin' blankly ahead,
Just makin' my way,
Makin' a way through the crowd.
And I need you,
And I miss you,
And now I wonder...

If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time
would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
Tonight.

It's always times like these
When I think of you,
And wonder if you ever think of me.
'Cause everything's so wrong
And I don't belong.
Livin' in your precious memory.

'Cause I need you,
And I miss you,
And now I wonder...
If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time
would pass me by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
Tonight.

I, I, don't wanna let you know
I, I, drown in your memory.
I, I, don't wanna let this go.
I, I, don't.
Makin' my way downtown,
Walkin' fast,
Faces pass and I'm homebound.

Starin' blankly ahead,
Just makin' my way,
Makin' a way through the crowd.
And I still need you,
And I still miss you,
And now I wonder...

If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time
Would pass.. us by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you...
oh oh

If I could fall into the sky,
Do you think time would pass us by?
'Cause you know I'd walk a thousand miles
If I could just see you.
If I could just hold you....
Tonight.

KL

I havent updated my blog for quite a while. Its not because I was lazy or anything but bcoz i was extremely BUSY :-) been packing stuffs and moving to a new house at the same time as well as attended classes. I wasnt even planned to go back to KL but suddenly my mom said "kaklong teman mama balik KL la" and I was like "owh Ok..sure" and here I am in KL and enjoying myself with all the shopping spree :-) but sad, I am going bck tomorow after been here for almost 3 dayz already. Trying to spend my time as much as I could with my family :-) coz I aint gonna seee them for almost 3months..sad aye..ohwell..

What have I done here so far? well I've been spending time with my family and relatives, had "DOME" with Ninie and had "STARBUCKS" with Shah. Had a Great time with them. THanks for spending the time with me guyz. I am meeting another crowd tonite at KLCC..kewl kewl aye :-)

I am so tired and sleepy but because I am still used to with THe NZ weather, I tend to sleep early and wake up early..and even though I sleep late, I am still going to wake up early as i can DAMN!!

I got to go..gonna have breakfast and going out later :-) more shopping again...daaaaa

sux

I hate being sick..arghhh..not a good gift for my birthday..damnit!! not enjoying of celebration at all..end-up feeling sick, grumpy and totally unhealthy the whole day yesterday..man..but I would like to thank all my family and friends for the wish. Thanks for remembering..and the gifts as well..thanks aye..really like it..i will keep it no matter what..not going to lose it :-)

geminias are all the same (refer to guyz only)

I actually have a faith about each of geminians guyz will be totally different from each other. damn, I was wrong..they are all the same..being nice to you but end up breaking your heart into pieces..just because they are matured and darn nice to you, doesnt mean they are "really nice" to you..damn look can be deceiving..screw them..I have had enough meeting Geminians guyz.They all are just the same even though they are the other side of the world. f*%@ those geminians guyz. Have had bad history with them..No more opening up to people..Enough is Enough..tired of being nice and caring..end up being the loser at the end of the day..guyz are totally a loser.

p/s: received the bad news on my bday.

Screw them

I know I never actually complaint about the fees even though I have been studied here as an international student for about 3 years now but I was thinking, why does the fee for the international student is so bloody expensive? dont the Uni knows that not all international students are rich? they expect just because they come here for study doesnt mean they are rich!!!

do you know that other overseas Uni like US or UK (from what I heard) allow the international students to attend the graduation ceremony earlier before their courses finish but the UNi here, they do not allow you because your courses finish at the same time with the ceremony which is in may BUT to allow you to attend the ceremony you have to finish everything by April. What the fuck? so what if the studnet finish in may, they will have to wait all the way to decemeber to attend another graduation ceremony? wat will theydo? sit around and do nothing??!!!!no offence but international studnets are not lazy like their peple who are waiting for the government give them money every week. No wonder the tax here is high because people who are working got to work-hard to feed those who are lazy to work!!!

Screw them..i am so freaking PISS

Lazy to update blog

thats all for now..please look at the title above for the reason

Rumours

Saturday Night steppin' into the club
And it makes me wanna tell the DJ
To turn it Up
I feel the energy all around
And my body can't stop moving to the sound

But I can tell that you're watching me
And you're probably gonna write what you didn't see
Well I just need a little space to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Here we are back up in the club
People taking pictures
Don't you think they get enough
I just wanna be all over the floor
And throw my hands up in the air to a beat like (What?)

I've gotta say respectfully
I would like it if you take the cameras off of me
'Cause I just want a little room to breathe
Can you please respect my privacy

Why can't you just let me
Do the things I wanna do
I just wanna be me
I don't understand why
Would you wanna bring me down
I'm only having fun
I'm gonna live my life
Like I wanna do

I'm tired of rumors starting
I'm sick of being followed
I'm tired of people lying
Saying what they want about me
Why can't they back up off me
Why can't they let me live
I'm gonna do it my way
Take this for just what it is

Back on Track

hmm..been away for a while..and now I am back on Track..hmm sum of you mite b wondering, where the heck was I..well as a start I was in the hospital.Period. Second, I have been bz completing my very last work to complete. Got lots and lots of things to submit. Well I guess Hols aint over yet :((

I think I have been more genius now as I have been reading my resources of my essays most of the times..but at the same time, I am no more social butterfly as I got stuck at home doing reading..too bad..no more tennis, no more game-zone, no more reading-cinemas except coffee and shop til i Drop..hahah jz kidding but not the coffee part. I will try my best to have a coffee with my bestfrenzz..[geez I am a coffee freak]

On tuesday, there waas another Earthquake happened when I was in the hospital. It happend around 6-6.30 am and the scale awa 5.4 richter.Damn that was kinda big as I could felt the entire building was shaking. I was damn scared man. I wonder if we had to run I think I would be the one who will be left behind as at that time I can barely speak..only a few words..kih kih kih..weird :)

Man..today was hot. The tempreture was 32 degress..damn feel like Malaysia now..The breeze of Malaysia has finally come to welcome me home..hahahha..