Things to be Mend..

To the dearest best friend I've ever had,
this is a dedication to you,
you deserve every word of it,
for all the little things you do.

Lately I've been thinking if,
if suddenly our lives just changed,
if nothing would ever be the same,
and our friendship was rearranged.

And lately I've been thinking,
of the place for you in my heart,
its one that will never disappear,
even if we might have to part.

You are my shelter out of the rain,
the sun shining down on me,
you're one of the best parts of my life,
and i have to let you see.

That you mean more than my own life,
and for you i know I'd die,
because all i want is to know your happy,
and theres someone to hear your cries.

I have finally realized,
that friendship is the greatest of all,
and i never want to lose what we have,
i need you to catch my fall.

Not a day passes through my life,
when i don't think of your face,
of the million times you've made me smile,
the memories that wont erase...

He sent me this poem via message..and I melt..Ihave been thinking to mend things btwn us but I didnt had the guts to talk to him and apologize to him because of my STUPID EGO..why am I being so egoistic, selfish and unreasonable??why??I have no idea..

I have been talking to other friend and he told me, I should talk to him and do not put any high-expectations anymore..what is past, jz let it be the past..arghhh why is it so ez?? I wish it was that ez..letting fo your past and live in the present..after a while, I did had the courage to speak to him via sms and he hasn't reply since..I dun know, maybe he still angry at me or he doesn't want to talk to me anymore???Maybe it's my fault and if he doesn't want to talk to me anymore then I guess, I should move on because it was entirely my fault. I started this supid fight and I have to pay the price..

If I had the chance to take this back, I would..I will not being selfish and unreasonable...why I was so grumpy and unreasonable at him??why??because I have been emotionally attached to hIm? because he was always there when I needed him??because all this time, the only person he has been loved is me?? now he has someonelse in his life then I am not needed anymore?? I dun know..now I am blaming my self for the stupid mistakes I have ever made..I was being harsh and rude to him over a small thing..how selfish I was =(

I had an accident on friday...on the way to the airport to send my mom..I was shocked even though it was no serious injury..a car hit my car from the back..and his car was broken and mine was not..only a few straches...i was relieved..well at least my car doesn't had any serious damage if not, my mom would be screaming and yelling to me on the way to the airport..but I pity the guy..His car was broken on the front-part..well what can I say, a toyota-corola hit honda crv-sport-four-wheel drive car..obviously, nothing happend to me but I feel sorry for him tho'..hope nothing will happen again to me in the future..AMIN..

HAPPY HALLOWEEN PEEPS..no scaring people around ya? oh yeah..do some trick-treat OK kids?? You'll get more loliess..!! sweet'as

*15 DAYZ TO GO

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