contacts

It's official..my left eyes seriusly need a make-over..its has a jinx or something..I just lost the 3rd pair today..OMIGOD..why it had to happen when I was driving???? WHY WHY????? I went out to break-fast wit my mom, and I had to look using my right eye coz my left's one was so blurrrrr!!can't see a thing..I had to have my mom drove me back..so embarrasing..Omigod..the next time, I need to get a contact that really sticks like a glue..made especially for my left eye!!!*bad mood the whole evening*

*23 days to go...

Song of the day

CINTA TAK BERGANTI
Iman Wan/Siti Nurhaliza

Biarkanlah resah sayang
Sukar ku lalui
Buat ku berduka

*Kenangkanlah oh semalam
Walau cinta dikunci
Janji tak ku lupa

**Tak daya ku halangi
Tak ku cuba jauhi
Tetap di sini
Terus menanti

Korus
Ikrar kita mengharungi badai sakti
Mencari sinar kasih suci
Walaupun nafas ku ini pasti terhenti
Jangan pula ada sangsi lubuk hati
Percaya cinta tiada ganti
Kau yang ku cari
Kaulah kasih ke akhir hayat nanti

time will heal all wounds

..imagine losing someone you really love over death?I cannot imagine to my friends esp if that ever happend to me..but yet one of my closest confessed that to me..just now and I feel so touched and sad..coz there is no way I can console him..like the way he consoled me wit my problems..I realise not all problems that I can solve straight away..take times..

This good friend of mine, let me just name him "S" used to hav a fiancee and they lived happily for 8 years but not for long..she left him forever in 2001 coz she passed away of tumor/cancer kat lung..and he quits his job to take care of her and be there till her last breath..and made a promise to love her for the rest of my life and never fall in love to someone else..

I told him "I may have no right to judge whatsoever lah kan coz I dun know what happend in the past lah and beside i dun know u when it happend kan but from my opinion lah kan..i think as a woman, no matter how selfish bitch(I'm refering to myself) we are, deep down, we want the one that we love to be happy whether we are with the him or not..in this case i think wen u said u will never fall in love kan i think she wants u to fall in love again and find happiness..thats what i think" and he said "I know but it will be unfair for the new person if i keep holding on to her"

I am totally stuck..and I realise there is no way I can help him coz only him can heal all his wounds and I can jz support him whenever he needs me..is just I wish I could help him to recover from his past..I know he's trying to move on but deep down, there's always a hole inside and he is trying not to be fallen in it..or he has..I dunno know..but he is trying to heal..healing takes times..is jz I wish..i dunno..deep down I am crying..for him..i cannot seem to bring myself to stop thinking abt the story he has..I always thought my lovelife is bad..now I have met the worst..I realise I got to move on...my prob isnt't worst as him..

"sometimes you encounter a bigger problem, when this happens, it will make you wiser and stronger in life"

List

I woke up this morning and I realised their are few things I have not done in my life..I really want to do before I involve myself in a serius commitment..hehehe..so here goes:

1. I want to do bungee-jump [even tho, my mom nod big "NO NO"], I want to do it, or else I will regret it forever

2. I want to visit Milan, Italy ever since my dad been talking abt the Italian footballers..[I am not a footballer freak]..the main reason why I wan to go there because they were the empire maker of fashion design!

3. I want to be around the world..nice to do visit all the countries in the world rite?

4. I want to visit the 7 special places in the world..is it 7 or 6? I cannot remember!

5. I've been to Mekah..and it wud be nice if I can go again!

6. I want to further my studies till P.HD

7. I want to lose weight..like real losing it!

At the moment, this is the things in my life I want to do..hopefully I can achieve it..well people say, without courage and determination, dreams will not bear in hand..but if you work extremely hard, the dreams will come true, definetely..so there its not wrong in dreaming rite?? sweet'as..

*25days to go

Salju Kasih Nya

Dingin dalam jiwa MU
Disirami salju kasih MU
Ku susuri jalan MU
Walau ranjau berliku

Tenang saat merindu
Takafur ku dihadapan MU
Deraian airmata gugur dalam sujud ku
Betapa agungnya cinta MU

( korus )
Gelora silam tak bisa tepasam
Namun harapan menggunung di hati
Gelora kasih tak mungkin terluput
Kerana hati ku merantau jauh
Ingin bertemu
Dengan MU oh... kasih...

Rindu mencengkam jiwa
Sebak dada tiada tertahan
Hanya pada MU tuhan ku serah diri ini
Pohon cinta Mu nan suci hakiki...

*song of the day-Salju Kasih Nya by Siti Nurhaliza

Happy Birthday OLI!!

Me, Nal, Neene, Oli n Christy


Me, Christy, Oli, Neene and Yi Mei


The Happy Smiley Faces 


Bday Gurl and Me 


Bday Girl!!Olivia Thomas


The Cake 

I wz driving to pick up my mom from work jz now and I was so shocked, twisted and scared when I saw the Police car was waiting for me..but then I reaLISED the police car was waiting the front car..bugger..that scared the beeps hell out of me..my heart was pumping so damn fast and I was confused whether is it my car or the other car??newayz..luckily nothing happen to me..or else my mom wud be talking and complaining all the way home..*wink*

I am gonna be around-Michael Learns to Rock

It's been so long since we took the time
to share words from deep inside us
We're in our own world spinning our wheels
but you know how I feel
Well since the first time I took your hand
my love for you has just been growing
You always seem to understand Y
ou know how I am
Chorus:I'm gonna love you til the end
I'm gonna be your very true friend
I wanna share your ups and downs
I'm gonna be around
When you're alone and I'm away
don't be sad don't be afraid
I'm gonna turn my thoughts to you
like I always do
Chorus:I'm gonna love you til the end
I'm gonna be your very true friend...
Catch you when you fall
Hold you when you're down
Sharing every momentI wanna show you all I do
I believe I've found a miraclein you
Chorus:I'm gonna love you til the end
I'm gonna be your very true friend...
But even though the cold from your still beating
and even though the cold in your eyes
makes me freeze all the time

*dedicated to all the people who I know

Tuesday

Tuesday nice weather today..compared to yesterday..raining and cold..gloomy..the worst winter in the year[qoute by the New Zealand's newspaper]..nwayz Iam still tired from yesterday work..I finished work arnd 1am then got home and check my mails but my stupid computer started to act weirdly..with this annoying sounds and "couldn't find server"...then I realised it was xtra.co.nz fault..something wrong wit it...then i finished my dinner that I didn't had the chance to finish it at work..after all the tiredness that was possed in my body, I offically closed my eyes around 3am after miggling around on the bed..

I told my mom this morning I wanted to have some haircuts and she said NO coz she likes my hair and the way my hair flows..but the thing is it getting fluffy and quite hard at the end..its not soft at the end and I hate it when i touch it as i like to play wit it whenever Iam in the car or in the mall or talking to my frens..but I was thinking, since I am so determine to come home next year during February, I will keep it no matter how thick or hard or whatever it is..oh yeah, I colored my hair the other day with caramel medium brown and I didn't know the color will turn out so obvious and now my hair looks so obvious wit the colour in it..it looks abit of redish-brown whereas the real reason why I coloured it at the first place to eliminate the color I already had on my head..

I got to run..I have appointment wit the doctor at 10.15am to clean my ear..I had infection last week and it turned out better oredi after I put the medicine was given by my doctor..so annoying when I had the infection in my ear..I cudn't hear a thing whenever my mom call me..its so blurry and stuff..

I cannot believe how quite the UNi now since everyone has their exams and tests..

*26 days to go..

rainy days

What a rain to start monday morning..i didnt even wan to wake up this morning..heavey rain and its so damn cold..third day of Puasa
*27 days to go

Fasting month

Ramadhan..this month is the most special month of islamic month as this month is normally where all the muslim seek forgiveness from Allah to dimish their sins..

I was thinking how much Sins I have been doing since the day I was born? do you that since the day we are born, everything we do or say are counted from the angels who have been sent from Allah to us? I wonder how much mine has been counted?A lot.. I guess?

I ate bihun goreng during the fasting break..and boy how I miss the Msian food even more!..I miss the terawih as well as going to pasar ramadhan every evening just to check out the food and stuff..miss those times where i jst sat infront of the tele and watched the cantonese movie and waited for the dinner to be served..omigod..i really missess it now..

i spoke to my fren today and i pity her..she told me her tailor house was on fire and all the clothing she has sent to be sewing has burned too!omigod..all those kain from other customers have gone too..what a shame aye..when that tragedy happend during ramadhan..oh dear..what a shamed!!now she has to buy the ready-made ones since she has old ones to be wear this yr-raya..come to think of that, i dun hv new ones too!i have the old ones where i used to wear everytime there is a function here in NZ..man..doesn't really matter anyway..i dun really celebrate Hari raya like i used to when i was a kid..whre i woke up ine the morning and dress nicely and waited my dad came home from mosque and que for the "duit raya"..now i only wake up to because i think its raya and ask forgiveness from my parents for whatever sins I have done..and *sob* i dun get duit raya anymore..

This yr i mite not be hari raya in Wgtn, maybe OZ..i dunno..its better to get out from welly once in a while..i seem to dun like welly anymore..lots of faces that i dun tend to see..rather keeping it to myself..better off this way :D

My family...luv'em..

Nifail Haziq


Afzul Farouqi


Irfan Rafiqin, IzzulAqil and Aniq Farhan


Ibu n Papa


Ayah and Mama

My family in the whole world..wudnt trade them wit anything..lov them to bits n pieces

selamat berpuasa pada semua!!!

i started puasa today and man..how i missed the msian food at the mo..i hv a stomach ache at the mo coz of my mom's cooking..its tooo hot..killing my stomach but the food of couse delicious..newayz..cant wait to lose weight heheh...still got 29 days to go!

History

I manage to finish 3 essays in one nite..what a shocking..fuh...my hands were keep on typing whatever sentences came out from my mind..fuh..now i feel tired..i need to sleep..

Tommoro will be the puasa for Malaysian citizen and how i missess that..I hate puasa in New Zealand not complaining abt the weather tho'...dun worry..I hate those fijian ppl who set the rules..by announce the puasa is on the 2nd day of ramadan..[by not following what is supposed to be followed]...they assume they are in Fiji, that's why we always puasa late than one day and of course raya late one day because the time trave in fjian is later than msia n nz [i think?]...what the fark..this is NZ man..not fiji..if u wn to puasa in fiji better go back there..can u image how they have responsible all the sins they have done??..It has been for 4 years since i've been here..and that I dont think I never fully satisfied with my puasa..can u imagine i had to either puasa more than 30 days or less than 30 days...what the fark??when i was in msia, i used to puasa only 30 days and those ustaz2 in msia more follow the kitab than them..here..the fijian here is so annoying..i neva like them anyway..they may seem to look innocent and hard-working but they just a trouble-maker here in nz..bcoz of them, the muslim here get more..racist from the KIWI..damn those fijians..[i dun care if i said i am not a racist but this is a fact..and i hate them bcoz of what they have done..]..oh yeah we are puasa on sat!!!!damn YOU!!!

Anyway ppl..selamat berpuasa...maaf zahir dan batin..peeps..
*I miss my family**sob*

100 facts abt me

I visited my friend’s blog and I saw the list of 100 things about him and I think I shud do it too. SO here goes..The 100 facts about me!

1. My full name is Ike Afnifa bt. Hambali.

2. Normally I refer myself as Ike Hambali

3. People always mispronounce or misspell my name and I hate it coz for me, name is an important element in your own identity. The correct pronunciation of Ike is e-ki or iki

4. I was born on 21-2-81 and in Penang.

5. My parent divorced when I was 7 and I have 1 brother and 4 half brothers after my parents remarried. But I wudnt call them as my half-brothers. They are my brothers after all.

6. My blood is B+ and I am a blood-donor

7. The first ever boyfriend I had at the age of 16 [I had the crush on the guy when I was 15 and turned-out the guy oso like me but we did not get together until one year later].

8. Since then, I have been off and on relationship and to be counted all together, I have had 5 boyfriends. My last relationship ended last year and I am still recovering from it.

9. I went to 4 different primary schools, 4 different secondary and 2 different Universities..well what can I say..I moved a lot.

10. I used to be a prefect, class reps, and a netballer when I was in primary and secondary. I won a 2nd place in class when I was in primary school, I won the third place in reading n writing competition in from2 and Form 4 was the best moment of my school's life.

11. I used to get a yellow warning letter from my hostel's warden for breaking the hostel's law. Consequenly, I had my dad drove all the way to S'ban to scold me but luckily, my mom calmed him down [that what my mom said]. SoI was saved..for a while

12. I have lots of bestfriends but most of them cheated on me and backstabber. Since then, I have been trying to take pre-caution steps in trusting people. Apparently, due to my gullibility, I keep repeating the same mistakes all over again.

13. I am too sensitive and have a really fragile heart actually but only who are really close to me will see that. When I am hurt, it will take time to recover it. It took me a while to get over my parents's separation actually. I was fully recovered in 1999. So, it will takes a while too to get over someone who just broken-up wit me.

14. I am a moody and temperamental and none of my friends know that [ I think]. I get angry easily and easily cool down depends on the angry reasons. Despite of the easily being moody, I am trying my best to hide my temper and moodiness infront of my friends.

15. People always see I am an excel student [that what my friends always say], in contrast, I am not. I failed Maths in school and never was excelled in secondary school. Well.. I am trying very hard now..am I?

16. I used to believe in soul-mates and true love but since I was been hurt so deeply, I hate those words anymore and I don't think that even existed.

17. Lately, I have been trying to distant myself from the people that know me as I think being nice, helpful and friendly, doesn't help me being "nice, helpful and friendly" to them. I just found out, somebody who I trust just backstab me.[told u i am guilible]..

18. I hate being known as "somebody's daugther" as I am trying to build my own identity and beside being "somebody's daugther" doesn't help me gain popularity or trust. Some group of friends I am befriending with either being a selfish bitch or double selfish bitch but not all OK, some of them are really befriending with me because of me.

19. I think being honest is the best solution in life to gain friendship and that's what adore me the most..and I am trying to be honest as much as i can

20. I am scare of getting married [or being a relationship] but doesn't kill me to see ppl happy in marriage or relatioship thus I am praying for them.

21. I have a disabilty brother and I think he's the most adorable creature ALLah ever created.

22. Ppl always mistaken me as an Indonesian..prob bcoz of my name??

23. My x-classmates used to think either I am Japaneseor Indian or Indian or Chinese..for God Sake, I dun even look like Chinese nor Japanese.

24. Some ppl think I dance the Tranditional Malaysian dances gracefully BUT I don't think so.. I think the reason why I dance because I like it..period

25. Desperately to lose weight, I used to throw up most of what I ate and I hated it.. I swore I never to throw food anymore..

26. I have a very strong instinct. I know what will happen..I know its creepy..tell me abt it..but I guess it got something to do with my star-sign..nuff said!

27. Some Anties and Uncles and even my friends adore me and my brothers' names because they say it an unique names : Ike Afnifa, Afzul Farouqi, Irfan Rafiqin, Nifail Haziq, Aniq Farhan and Izzul Aqil..do you agree?

28. My fav colur is Purple and if ever I got married, I wan my theme will be purple

29. Whn I am stuck wit one tv programe, I will find anything abt the programe from-gossip to future episode. I dun care what they said, I want to know what will happen and I hate waiting..

30. I am close to my brother: Afzul and we share our secrets and thoughts. He knows mine and I know his's.

31. I love listening to Music..

32. I have more guy bestfriends than gurls..

33. The best book I've ever read is by Nicholas Sparks-A walk to remember..I wan my love story to be like that..well not die at the end of course!

34. I really wanted to go to Mauritius to visit their beach and being able to lay down at the beach without doing anything..just lying there..

35. I hate racism [ as I have been into one].

36. I used to wish I had a sister but now I dont want anymore..its nice to be a big sister..dictator rule!

37. I hate fighting but always be into one esp wit my parents.

38. One of my biggest achievement will be when my parents are proud of me when I am graduated....

39. I know this sound silly but if a guy want to sweep my feet off is by saying "i want to grow old with you"..i get this Quote from a movie heheheh..

40. I am hopelessly romantic..

41.I am a day-dreamer..

42. I am not a neat nor messy person..I am in between..my room can be messy or neat depending on my mood.

43. I like it when hair smells so nice..so hair is essential part of my life.

44. To tell the truth, I think more negative than positive.

45. I never stress over exams or test..I always relax! but I do get stress over essays or assingments.

46. I never had hope to get A in my studies..coz I know my level of achievement..being able to get B+ is already the biggest achievement for me..

47. I jz can't understand why some people want to get more marks than they already have? if they oredi get A then, that's it, why must work extra hard to get A+? its just a alphabet anyway..

48. I go with the flow..

49. I dun plan my life..I let the life plan for me..

50. When my friends feeling sad, I am sad too! I seem to have connection with them..

51. I always be there for ppl but ppl never be there for me..

52. I've learned from my mistakes all the time..and try not to repeat them twice or even thrice..God forbid..

53. I have a wish, if ever I have childrens esp girls, I want to put "Ike" in their name..like a family name..

54. I love mags..

55. I still have my baby pillow wit me

56. I think I am a spoil-brat..a big one..coz I am the only gurl..in the family

57. I always see my self as "daddy's little gurl" and always will..so whoever want to date me has to get thru to my dad first..

58. I was a trouble-maker when I was little..and I am still is..

59. I am not that responsible actually..I always try to run from my mistakes and also I like to blame'em to someonelse..I dont think I can never change that even though I hav tried..at the moment, trying to be fully responsible..

60. I am always the one who befriending to new comers or meet them for the first time, but once they know other ppl, they seem to dump me on the rubbish bin or in simpler word: forget me!Hate that..

61. My parents: Capricorn, Gemini, Libra and Leo..I am a Pieces, Afzul is Libra, Irfan: Cancer, Nifail: Virgo,Aniq: Gemini, Izzul: Leo and I believe in star-signs. Im a star-sign freak. I love to read anything abt star-signs and tend to believe it..even though its not true..and it against my religion to believe such things..

62. I am a muslim..

63. I wish I was in KL now.

64. I almost wanted to quit my studies..luckily one person was there to console me.

65. Ilove to read but depend on my mood tho'

66. I got my writing skills from my dad..coz he's a journalist..

67. I am sux at spelling..I used to be good..I dun know what happen..

68. I wanted to b a chareographer..

69. I easily admire ppls' talents that I don't have..as in..if a person is good in chareogphing, I admire what he can do..coz I can't do it..

70. I used to hv siblings jealousy wit my brothers.. and I think I still am..well my bro is good in maths..of course I am jealous..dont you???

71. The reason why I fall asleep because I wan to dream..anything wud be fine but as long as I dream..

72. The reason I do drawing is because to release my anger..over something..

73. Whenever I read something on the papers, I wish I was the Journalist who wrote it coz some of it may not be true. I want to be a journalist that be able to write true stuff to apply to audience.

74. I have a really high ego..don't expect me to say sorry even though I did that mistakes..

75. I bite my nails when I am worried over something..

76. I am acrophobia (scare of height) and Eremophobia (scare of being alone)...

77. I am scare of ghost stories but I like to watch it..I always tease my brothers but I am the one who end up cannot sleep in nite..and keep rewinding the scene from the movie in my mind...

78. I can be hipokrit and selfish sometimes..

79. I have a stage-fright..even tho I hv been dancing and giving speeches..I am still scare to stand infront of audience..that's why I always dont wear glasses when I am on stage, so that I cannot see ppl [I am short-sighted] but since i've got contacts, I hv to face it anyway..

80. I have an asthic-manism [I hope i spell it correct] and it runs in the family..

81. I am a righty but I do stuff eg. moving, washing, laundry with my lefty coz it more stronger than my right hand.

82. Even though I always say " I am confident" , actually I am not confident wit my self..

83. I dun usually hate ppl but once I hate, I hate him/her forever..

84. I think guys are more bossy than gurls..

85. I don't care what ppl actually think abt me....coz I believe " they do not pay me to live, why shud i gv a f**k what they think!!"

86. I always curse ppl whenever I am driving..[only to those who do not the rules of driving]

87. I don't buy b'day gifts to anyone unless they are special to me..

88. I like to sleep..to chose between eating and sleeping, I wud rather go to bed

89. I like to spend more time in bathroom doing my hair than my face..

90. I am a multi-driver..I can sms, eating,chatting, singing and dreaming while driving..

91. I think some of Msian artists should look in the mirror first before being call "an artist"..coz some of them just want to gain popularity..

92. I can't different shape the lines....as in when I'm cutting the paper, I always see the paper line is perfect even though its not and also, I always wear my contact lens the other way around because I cannot different shape the circle.

93. Whenver I sing, I always think myself as " a singer who performs on the stage"..

94. I ve been dreaming to do bungee..if I did that, that wud be my anther biggest achievement..

95. I used to drawn before..at Pangkor and nearly died..

96. I never seen myself as an "inspiration" but there was once, a friend of mine, said I was his inspiration and I cudn't sleep the whole nite thinking abt it..

97. Some ppl think i am 18 or 19 even worse, 16???what were they thinking? and they tot I lied abt my age when I told them the truth..its true.. I am actually 23 this yr..I was born year 1981..

98. I am not a shopaholic but I spend a lot my money on food..my salary can be gone in one blink..and I dont even realised it..

99. I am an accident-prone.

100. The last fact: I love my parents and friends some much..

LIfe

I went to see my GP today coz I felt my throat isn't feeling well and guess wot the doctor said? "Well, Ike, I think your tonsil is coming up again." and also I told him about myright ear.. I cannot hear very well, maybe because I hit somethin inside when I was tryin to clean the wax the other and this what the doctor said "I think your ear has an infection". My god! I have 2 diseases in one day. Great just great. No wonder I have been having funny feeling whenever I was trying to swallow things. And also I cudn't hear very well whenever the phone rang and the song that been playing on my pc. No wonder I can only hear one side only...this is reminded me of the time, where Irfan, my brother had to see a doctor because my Ibu was trying to clean the wax inside his's ear and he kept on screaming, no cleaning his ear because he felt pain when my ibu did that. Similiar to my situation except different cases. He had a paper inside his ear and God-only-knows how the paper went inside his's ear..I cannot remember which ear but anyway it cracked me up when I heard it..and now it happend to me..see people always say "do not laugh at other's mistakes coz you will get the same ones" [well something like that]..hmm..

Anyway tomoro is my papa's bday and I am sad coz I am at a far far away land to celebrate it wit him. It's been 4 years now since I celebrated his bday..well I take this opportunity to wish him " a very happy birthday and hoping he will get his wishes come true this year".Luv ya!*hugz n kissess*


Mr. Hambali Abd Latiff

p/s:Today was my last class of the 2nd term..YEY!!!officially finish..hehehhe..oh yeah Gud luck and Congrats to Sean as being Next year WMSO's President [finally we have male President as its has been 3 years the women conquered the chart]..also to Haidir as VP, Nazrul as Secretary and Najiha aka KakG as Tresuarer

so cannot wait

i never believed I wud get a high mark for my proof-reading test [coz i am sux at proff-reading] but i did get it anyway..I got 7/10 which is great. maybe my classmates got higheer than that but I don't care coz their are Kiwis anyway and theya are proof-reading their own languge but I just don't care..I never liked my writing claass anyway..all my classmates-well not all, few of them are nice but some are..oh well luckily the class ended oredi..it seems like I have to force myself everytime tuesday comes..but since the class oredi ends, i dont hv to force myself anymore..

Tomoro will be my last class and I cannot wait this semester to end..just can't wait..i dun know why..I guess I am so tired of this 2nd trimsester as I hv been doing lots and lots of essays and it destroys my beauty sleepness..gosh..can't wait anymore

Monday Morning

Finally the weather has improved a little bit..after the wet and raining weeekends..God, only God knows-how-bad-the-weather was..

Finally this is the last week of the 2nd Term and gonna have a long holiday til 15 of Nov coz my summer school starts then..Gosh..start class during Hari Raya??Damn..oh well..anyway the Puasa is starting this Friday and then raya..I am looking forward to this yr Puasa since I am determine to lose weight as much as I can heheh..

Went out with Christy, Olivia and KC yesterday and I realised, once you hv a baby, all your ambition and determination has change because of one soul..I realised that yesterday when I looked at her..she's totally a new different person..she pampered the baby so much-buying him new clothes everytime she sees'em..whereas before she normally buy clothes for herself but now all she's buying is for the baby..how can a small tiny person can change the mother's habit? now I know how..I have seen it with my four eyes [coz I am wearing glasses]

I had a dream the other day and guess about the dream..it was about my late grandfather was angry at me because I didn't visit his's grave when I went home this year..and I called my papa, and I told him about it and ironically, he had the same dream to..my grandad was angry at him too! I told him that it was his fault for not bringing me back to visit "him" where I told him to bring me back..well can't blame my papa tho's..he's a bz man..meeting there meeting here..everywhere arnd KL..been ther seen that!Maybe next time, Aki *al fatihah*

I was making a breakfast for Haziq this morning and I was thinking about other brothers [Irfan, Aniq &Izzul] in KL on how they going to school and what they bring to school and stuff..and I remember Irfan who's very sensitive about anything [coz he's a cancer] and of course Cancer is a water sign..he can easily get sensitive tho' like me [even tho' I didn't show much when I grew older..I used to when I was little]Miss all my brothers at the mo

I cannot believe my small finger is still hurting from the accident in June..I tot it has recovered unfortenetly, it still hurting my hand..there was this one time, when I was at work, when I was clening the shelf, I kinda hit something and afterwards, there was black bruises and it hurts..hehe..normally I am imune to any pains but this time it hurts..it effected the way I type as well..I keep doing typo and it pissess me off..

*I wanna go shopping..I hate the shopping sense here in Wgtn..no esprit, no vincci, no elle, no Isetan..gosh most importantly, my usual hang out : DOME..wanna go HOMEEEEE*

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Why is it hard to write an essay at the moment? I dont know why suddenly I found it hard to write an essay. I have to think really hard to write an essay and this is the main reason why i keep on extending my essay. Omigod I am so screwed..I cannot believe what has happening to me. Before it wasnt so hard for me to write as I love writing so bad..

A Moment Like This

It's been a while since I updated my blog. Been so busy studying as well as practising for Malam Msia. Luckily the Malam ended on Saturday and it turned out to be OK. Not so boring not so grand "continental" which was good [I think}. I wore Sari on that nite and most of my frens said I looked thin [heheh] which was good coz I hav been trying to lose weight ever since I came bck from Malaysia last 2 months.

I did dance on that nite and there were 4 dances that were presented on that nite. "From 50s to present" the theme for our dance. First we danced the "Joget Mak Lodeh" then "Nirmala" then "Seiring and Sejalan" and Finally the "superstar". "Joget and Nirmala were the traditional ones whereas the Seiring and Sejalan and the Supestar were more to pop dance. "Seiring and Sejalan" is a theme song for this malay movie which I cannot remember but the music kinda catchy so its not bad to dance. It was taken from a 70s/80s Movie I think..anyway everything was good!

Everyone looked lovely that nite. Lya bought a dress that she finally agree to wear coz i told her if she didnt wear that dress I am not gonna talk to her forever..because of the reasons I don't want to disclose here..[btwn me n her only]. Most of them wore more modern dress instead of traditonal ones which was kewl..only me wore Sari that nite and I am proud to say that! I have been waiting to wear Sari for the Malaysian Nite and finally my dream had came true last sat..thnx to my fren who bought it at Fiji when she went home last month and thnx to Naz for helping me wore that too!

oh before I forgot, I haven't mentioned that I won lucky draw that nite? Omigod I did and it was the last prize that ntie and I cannot believe it..because I have never won any lucky draws before..A few hours after that I told christy that "kalu aku menang malam ni, memang hari ini dlm sejarah lar" and walaa! I did! "one nite stay at the James Cook Hotel in standard room" and i can use it everywhere arnd NZ..isn't that cool??? Hell Yeah..!!

Next week is the last week of UNi and then hols for those who do not have exams [that includes me]. I do not have exams but I do hve essay to due during hols so kinda having an "exam" as well..heheh but nvm I am used to doing essay anyway..It's my thing! Cannot believe I am oredi in my final year..final trimester..My god..how time flies to fast, I didnt even realised it! No wonder people always say "time is gold. every minute counts". So now I know what it means..Took me this while to figure it out..silly me! YeaH rite!

It's 3 am now and I am still awake. I am tired but I am not sleepy. I came back about 1 am from work and it wasn't that bad. It wasn't busy and wasn't quite too! So it was balance anway. But shits still happend! customers can be so damn shitty and bitchy sometimes..dun want to talk about that..gonna ruin my mood..by the way, I met this guy that always come on Sunday. I used to work on Sunday, so technically I saw him whenever he came..and he likes to smile at me..I notice but he's a bit jack-ass sometimes..my boss hates him coz whenever he and his friends come, they like to change their order every one seconds!..its true aye! I hate that but luckily that never happend to me which is good! at least he doesn't get any of my cursing..I like to curse a lot only to those who mess with me!

At the moment I am playing scrable with Nysha and I am losing..damnit..my mind isn't working at all..maybe because I am still awake and I need to go to bed?? maybe..by the way, I had a test yesterday [Tuesday] and it was good..[i guess]..the test was about proof-reading an article. I had to find mistakes and re-write it..well its kinda editor thingy..coz I am taking writing for print media so basically I have to do that if Iwant to be a writer rite?? even though I am sux at proof-read and spelling [that's my biggest challenge], I found it enjoyable, marking paper and write some mistakes..FuN FuN..picking up mistakes..heheh isn't that FuN?

I think I better Off now..It's been a long nite and I need a good nite sleep..oh yeah I finally got the chance to talk to my bestfriend:Makoto..haven't heard from him for while..I remember me, him n christy used to hang out together and always went everywhere together. We used to spend most of out "valuable" time at his place and he was always the one who feed us and we ended cleaning the kitchen..I miss that time..where everything was only about 3 of us..hang out at his place, went to Nando all the time [he practically feeding us with Nando until me n christy hate that place and didn't wnt to go there anymore], clubbing together and stayed at starbucks all day just to watch chicks and bitched about them..well of course me and christy looked at guys..man those time was the best in my life..I miss that..everything suddenly fall apart when he left unexpectedly and didn't come back [he's not dead..he's still alive of course] and christy started to date someone..miss hang out with them..'till now I feel alone..no one to talk to actually..but I guess life goes on rite?I have been fighting this feeling since then..even though I haven't succeed, I guess I have continue my life..coz that's what I need to do to live..

'till then Blog!

Me during The Malam

I received 2 bad news today. One My fren's dad has passed away..unexpectedly..I know there is no word to describe her feelings right now..and there is no words that can comfort her as much. The only thing that can make her stand on her feet is herself. Like i said, words cannot express her emotions at the moment. I cannot imagine losing someone that really close to you and more owrse you werent there at the last breathe. My condelensence to you, Wani. Be brave!

Second case is that my friend got dumped by his gf because she found a new guy!..shocking! The girl was and still the the guy's first love. She's the one who technically has changed the guy's life. He was worse and bad but the gurl was there to save her. Took his hand from falling into a hole and since then, they live happily ever after. He has done almost anything for her but now because there is a new bastard who starting to praises her, to cherish her, to be there for her, she starting to forget what the BF has done for her. He practically done almost everything for her and just because the new guy give her a shoulder to cry on, she changes her mind! Trust me, it'll never be okay that she's gone. But I promise, it will get better.