TOP 10 REJECTION LINES BY WOMEN

TOP 10 REJECTION LINES BY WOMEN and what they actually meant:

1. I think of you as a brother. (You remind me of that inbred banjo- playing geek in "Deliverance.")

2. There's a slight difference in our ages. (You are one jurassic geezer.)

3. I'm not attracted to you in *that* way. (You are the ugliest dork I've ever laid eyes upon.)

4. My life is too complicated right now. (I'm waiting for a rich sugar daddy.)

5. I've got a boyfriend. (I've got a vibrator.)

6. I don't date men where I work. (Hey, bud, I wouldn't even date you if you were in the same *solar system*, much less the same building.)

7. It's not you, it's me. (It's not me, it's you.)

8. I'm concentrating on my career. (Even something as boring and unfulfilling as my job is better than dating you.)

9. I'm celibate. (One look at you and I'm ready to swear off men altogether.)

10. Let's be friends. (I want you to stay around so I can tell you in excruciating detail about all the other men I meet and have sex with.)

my baby

my little mickey



cutey mickey



me n michel

"Behind These Hazel Eyes"

Seems like just yesterday

You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
So together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

*to someone who used to be special in my life*

typical days for me :)

typical days for me..work work work..people (who are closed to me) have been complaining about me being workhaholic. hardly seen me around..well sorry guys..is not like I dont want to hang out but I don't see where's the point to hang out when work comes first (that's for me now). I love spending time with those kids at work. they make me happy than hanging arnd with those maniacs (not you guys ok. You guys know who I mean aye!!).

Have been working more than 20 hours a week! just imagine how many hours of sleep I have lost since I started working. Apparently I found it weird..coz I dont complain much about not having too much sleep!! coz I enjoy the work I am doing. kids are very important in my life. I dont know..i feel like lending them an extra hand does makes a different. I don't care about what people said about my job or the kids..in fact I love them more :)

speaking of that, one of the kids are leaving this thursday. the kid I have been taking care of since the day he arrived :(..i call him my baby..he's 2 and half months and he is so cute. I love spending time with him..he's cute and beautiful..what's wrong with him? well he's an intellectual disability/development but what the heck, its not his fault he has the conditions. no one to blame. everything happens for a reason :) anyways..he is sucha beautiful thing. very cute. now hes starting to walk by himself. oh ya!! his name is michael but i call him "little mickey". he likes to smile alot..laughing and drink a lot of milks..a lot infact :) hehehhe..gosh i sound like i wan to have a baby!! noooooooooo..freak me out..anyways..he's leaving this thursday coz they support worker has found him a foster family. *sob* so he will be leaving with his foster parents well foster mom to be exact. the foster mom is one of the worker at IHC. Lucky her..I wish I have the oppoturnity to be micheal's mom..oh well i dont think i can that responsibility yet. its too big for me at the mo :)

i dont know if i can see him leaving the base. i have been taking of him ever since he arrived at the base. i know every second he moves and what he is doing..when is he gonna have his nap n his milk. and three reasons why he cries :(( *sob* i will miss him esp in the middle in the night he wakes me up jsut because he wants milk or his nappy is wet. :( im emotionally attached to this kid. really! in fact i am emotionally attach to all the kids at the base. they are so pure and beautiful. (damn i am being too emotional and sensitive now).

well..i got hit from one of the kids yesterday nite because he has been having headche and sore-teeth. his wisdom teeth is coming out so he has been grumpy all the times. he hit people yesterday. first he pinched me my thighs ( och) then he pulled one of the kids's hair and my collegues and pinched my another collegues on his stomach (twice) OUCH..i dont think he did on purposed. he was trying to take out his pain to someonelse's. i know how painful the wisdom teeth pain is. had mine ages ago..but i know the pain tho' thats y i don mind he pinched if that helps him to feel better. that wasnt the first time i got hit tho. yesterday was the ..i dont know how many times..haf bruises on my feet coz got A kicked from the kids before..i feel like all the kids like to take out all the angry stuffs on me not to my collugues..hardly see them being beaten up or they never told me? or i am the choosen one to be beaten up for the hyper-active kids? dont know *sob* it's ok..not their fault anyways..well at least i dont get all those bitten from the kids...one of my collegues used to be bitten from the autism kids..wow..that must be painful..dont want that!! *a big NO NO*

moving out from the plc i am currently living in..moving to 169 the terrace on 5th july but will be staying with christy for a week or so..coz her husband will be going to OZ soon so just want to hang out with her..accompany her :) sweet'as

have a nice weekend..--back to packing up :)

mine mine mine!!

Your Birthdate: February 21

Being born on the 21st day of the month (3 energy) is likely to add a good bit of vitality to your life. The energy of 3 allows you bounce back rapidly from setbacks, physical or mental. There is a restlessness in your nature, but you seem to be able to portray an easygoing, "couldn't care less" attitude. You have a natural ability to express yourself in public, and you always make a very good impression. Good with words, you excel in writing, speaking, and possibly singing. You are energetic and always a good conversationalist. You have a keen imagination, but you tend to scatter your energies and become involved with too may superficial matters. Your mind is practical and rational despite this tendency to jump about. You are affectionate and loving, but very sensitive. You are subject to rapid ups and downs.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

when things get worse, what should you do? Run away from it, or face it like a warrior?

in my case, be in between, neither run or face. sit quietly and ignore it. let by gone be gone. no point to think of it coz its not yours anymore.

::buRN::

What Have I been Doing lately??:

1. Haven't had one day off since last week. Worked worked everyday until Sunday. Started to do sleepovers already. (sleepovers is when you stay one nite there to take care of the kids whom are sleeping at the base).

2. Lost weight coz haf no time to eat properly. Everytime I get home, I end up lying on the bed and fall asleep.

3. Being so damn broke coz just bot myelf a Laptop. Pentium 3-HP laptop. Bot it @ the cheaper price. NZ$300-from a friend who went back to Hong Kong. Still in the very good conditions. Wicked.

4. Been telling myself to book the app at the salon to get my hair trim. BUt since haf no time to do it, now my hair even grow longer.

5. Once in my lifetime, Afzul (my brother) called me personally to talk abt things. Wah shocking! he hardly calls me.. anyways thanks for being there for me brother love ya!

6. My mom called me twice on Monday and that was shocking too! she neva calls me twice in one day but now she had..im ok mama..don wori abt me. Life goes on..love ya!

7. i miss papa..really much

8. I miss home..really do..miss my little brothers bck home..really homesick at the moment. Luckily I am working involving children, so at least the feeling of missing my brothers gone a bit.

9. Been working my ass 24/7 these days n really like it even tho i feel tired sometimes..need a break like everybodyelse..but i guess life doesn't always treat you rite :-)

10. Chatted with my step-father yesterday and he told me my desktop has broken. the hard-disk has broken..NOOOO..all my pictures and songs have gone..my videos i jave dloaded...wahh :(( noooooooo..even tho i hv laptop now but i love my old pc..it has bring sucha good memories in my life..i don know how it got broken..i guess il c it when i go home end of th yr..mayb bcoz of the shipping company???hmm don make assumptions ok>?? hate that :p

11. got to go to work..haf to do sleepover again today..

The girlfriends in my life :)

I have been friending with different kinds of people but in those "kinds of people", I have met these 4 awesome girlfriends who have been there for me and neva judged me in things I have done regardless wheather it is worst or good. So here are my gf's who I have loved the most (in no particular order--you guys are always the no #1 in my heart)

Marlini (Ninie)


ninie


I have known her about 3 years now and the friendship still remains stronger. SHe has been there for me through ups and down, joy n sorrow. Neva once she doubted my decisions and as a result, she will always there to support me.

She may seems so shallow and self-wallow but emotionally strong and good at managing things. She cares for people and that what makes her so sweet.

I wudnt want to trade this friendship for anythingelse. She is the sweetest person I have known and hanging out with her, neva once, makes me sad (except on the day me flying bck to NZ, of course). She can laugh and talk talk talk abt everything.

I remember those times where she was broken-hearted and I was as hard as I can to cheer her up.If only I have the doraemon magic pouch, then I cud turn back time for you.

Really miss having her around..coz She's WICKED!!

Nazratul Akma (Jer)

Jer


Met her few minutes on the day she arrived in Wgtn and neva regret to know this caring person. She has been like a sister to me in WGTN. Feed me all the times and "care about people first but me" is always her motto. She doesn't care ppl talk abt her all times bcoz she cudnt be bothered. She tresures life and always appreacite what she has.

She is the sweetest thing. Neva look bad upon people and always say what she believes. Don't talk bad about people and always be outspoken whenver she thinks thats is not the right thing to do.

I always hang out at her place and she always cook traditional malay food with improvising the original recipies. SHe enjoys cooking and feeding ppl whereas I neva enjoys cooking but love feeding ppl. Hehehhehe..

I still remember the times where both of us were really damn broke, we sat down and counted the money we both had. Even though we only had a few dollars, we both neva cared abt it and instead feed ourselves buying more food with a few dollars!!

SHe's the kinda gurl who wont leave you when you are in pain and sorrow.She always there for you. I remember the times where someone I loved left wgtn, I called her and end up crying hard-out on the fon, she tried to cheer me up. I cried all the way to her house with toilet paper and as soon as I reached her hse, she was making fun of me or fbriging the toilet paper. As a result, I end up laughing and fell asleep :P

Thank God I have met her in this boring-windy-typical Wellington or else I end up being miserable forever.


Juanita (Nita)


them

She's one of the earliest person I met in this windy city. 1st time I met her, I tot she wud be so "garang" and not-that-friendly. But turn out she's the opposite site who you can talk for hours, feed you, take care of you and listen to your stupid rubbish conversations.

She neva talks bad things abt ppl. She doesnt care abt what ppl thinks abt her and always believe whatever you, you will always have to give and take. DOnt let people take advantage on you.

I can still remember, you lent me your sweat-shirt just bcoz it was so cold outside and i had to go home. THen how you cooked me your AWESOME pasta during our lunch hour (even tho it was one hour) but still i had fun. You an awesome cook..Azhar is lucky :)

Thank to mGod, she neva lost contact with me or else, I end up losing the precious diamond in the world.

CHristy Ngeow Seow Woon (christy)


christy

This lenglui has been part of my life since the day we met in VUW. TO tell you the truth I neva really liked her (as you know you will alwiz hav this feeling on the first time you met ppl). I tot she is rude, fierce yaddi yaddi yadd but she turned out to be so charming, sweet and caring. Been ther for me ups and downs, same as me for her. From the day she met her 1st bf until the day she got married (neva tot you will get married since you are not the commit type). Maybe there is something abt damon that hv changed your mind :P

anways she is the sweetest thing. I remember the first time we hang out together. Feed ourselves with food all the times. There have been too many memories that have captured us together until now. SO many things that I dont think I want to forget.

You were the one who came to my hse after I came out from the hospital. Lepak wit me on my bed and laughed at me when I was trying to speak. And you made this awesome present for my bday. To admite, YES thats the bestest present I have ever got. Tq so much for making it. I really love that present ( I didnt even sent it bck to KL coz I want it to be with me here)

You neva cared abt your petrol whenever I asked you to help me to move my stuff all the way to JVille to Kelburn. U neva cared whenever I eat your food (cmon I eaat a lot k) whevenever I am ur hse. You always being so generous to me and I dont think I can ever pay you this. You always listen to my problems even though sometimes you look like you dont bother abt it. hehheheh

There are so many things that I can talk about you bcoz you hv been so GREAT to me. but i think I betta leave it to me. Keep it as a secret. I am so lucky to have met you. THnks for being htere for me..

::so there goes my 4 bestfriends in life. I am so thankful I hav met this people. THey are one in the millions..really appreciate them..muah2::

Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay?

sometimes the things that we wish for, never seemed to come true. You gotta work hard to achieve it BUT no matter you work hard, you'll never achieve aye?=)

that what happens to me. I met the person but things didnt worked out. cant blame him or the situation bcoz i guess things are not meant to be =(

it hurts so badly but life goes on. dont want to think abt it.

"ignore the consequences, face the circumstances"

bday agong :)

me n jer


me n daus


me n nal


me n el


my girfriends


me n jaz

wonder if u wake up in the morning, what is the first thing that makes u happy?

of course, the smile on your face whenever you think about him :)

kids

Since I had the oppoturnity to get money by myself, I have been learning to earn every scent that I get from the job I occupied. Before, work for me is to get money on everytime I go to work but lately I have learned. Money isn't everything. What counts is that, things that makes u happy. So I have learned.

Since I have been working at a place call "IHC" (in your community), I have not thought about money most of the times. Suprisingly, I can't wait to go to work whereas earlier in my previous job, I was so damn lazy to go to work. I love spending my times there with the kids. Hanging out with kids make me happy. I love it when they are happy. I don't even think about what time I finish coz it seems like I want to stay there forever!!

The job descriptions involve taking care of them, preparing for the breakfast, lunch, morning tea, afternoon tea and dinner, bring them out for walk, give them bath and play with them. Well it may sounds a bit too much but actually it's not. It is simple as taking care of your sisters or brother but different ways because they need a special need since some of them are in very high-need (need to be lift or can't do bathing or eat by themselves).

I love working there. It seems like I feel satisfied. I enjoy spending time with children. To have kids on my own? nah..not ready to be that responsible :) I never actually believe I am going to say this but I think my future job will be taking care disable kids. Playing with them all day long never been tired and I never found it boring. New challange everyday, (I learn new things eveyrday from them btw)New stories, new things everday. I think I am ready for being challenge coz taking care of them is the best and hard way to do! Patience is a must to work with them :)

Who's Your Celebrity Soulmate?

whoho...yummy!!!he's my celebrity crush! yey!

Busy week

Will not update this blog for this week! got 2 tests and dont have enuff time to go online..jz wanna to let u guys know..take care..thnx for reading and supporting ;)

happy birthday to dearest Elmokri razman..with love

Saturday:

evening

I went to christy's wedding..the weddding started at 4pm but i was late...the wedding ceremony took place at this begonia house at botanic garden. I dont eve know where it was..i know where is the botanical garden but begonia house?? hell no..took me half an hour to climb up and down the hill just to find the place. when my watch showed 4 pm, iw as panicked. I ws thinking, damn im gonna be late for my bestfriend's wedding. i was nearly cried but luckily i saw these 3 tourists who happend to be lost as well. But Thank god, the passed the begonia hse, so they know where it is. by the time, i reached the begonia house, the minister was talking abt the marriage life, i was relieved coz the exchanging vows hasnt started yet.

when i looked at her signing the papers, i was actually sheding to tears. I cudnt believe she is getting married and im actually witnessing it.been ther for her ups n downs..thorugh sadness and happiness..was there wen she had on/off relationships..was there when she met damon until the day they got married..im totally happy for her..and i hope her happines till hte end of time..

Night

I went to her reception at nite..by the time i got there, my feet already blister and swollen bcoz of walking up and down the hill using the high-heels. the food was great and we had a bit talked yaddi yadda...her family was there ecept her brothers n mom..they are in msia..they didnt come with the rest of the family..

congratulations..to the bride the groom n to the both families..

blunt

sometimes people can be too ignorant towards other people's feelings. They do not bother to explicit their words even though they know, the words can be harsh and rude.

whereas some can be too kind not to hurt other's. They tend to think before they act just in case their words will cross other's.

other, just don't bother..they can do whatever they want as long it doesnt gone through the boundaries.

in other words, No One is Perfect

Episode 1 : "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?

===Tree===
The reason I'm called tree is because I'm good at painting trees. Overtime I start to use a tree on the right hand corner as a trademark for all my watercolors painting. I have dated 5 gals when I was in Pre-U. There's one gal who I love a lot but never dare go after her. She doesn't have a pretty face, doesn't have a good figure, doesn't have outstanding charm. She is just a very ordinary gal. I like her. I really like her. Like her innocent, like her frankness. Like her cuteness, like her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her is because I felt somebody so ordinary like her is not a good match for me. I'm also afraid that after we are together all the good feelings will vanish. I'm also afraid other's gossips will hurt her. I felt that if she's my gal, she will be mine ultimately & I don't have to give up everythingjust for her. The last reason, made her accompany me for 3years. She watch me chase after gals, and I have makeher heart cry for 3 years. She wants to be a good actress and I'm a very demanding director. When I kissed my 2nd girlfriend, she bumped into us. She was embarrassed but smile & say "Go on!"before running off. The next day, her eyes was swollen like a walnut. I purposely didn't want to think about what causes her to cry but laugh at her the whole day. When everybody go back home, she was alone crying in the classroom. She didn't know that I returned from soccer training to get something. I watch her cry for an hour or so. My 4th girlfriend didn't like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that based on her character she's not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided with my girlfriend. I shouted at her and her eyes was filled shocked. I didn't care about her feelings and walked off with my girlfriend. The next day, she still laugh & joke with me like nothing has ever happened. I know that she's very hurt but she didn't know that my heart ache is as bad as hers. When I broke up with my 5th girlfriend, I asked her out. After going out for a day, I told her that I have something to tell her. She told me that coincidentally, she has something to tell me too. I told her about my breakup and she told me about her getting together. I know who's the guy. He had been going after her for quite a while. A very cute guy full of energy, lively and interesting. His pursuit for her has been the talk of theschool. I can't show her my heart ache but could only smile & congratulate her. When I reach home, the heart ache is so strong that I can't stand it. It's like a heavy weighted stone on my chest. I couldn't breath. Wanted to shout but can't. Tears rolled down & I broke down & cry. How many times have I seen her cry for the man that doesn't acknowledge her presence too. During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It was send 10 days ago when I broke down and cry. I haven't read it since then. It says "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?


Episode 2 : "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?

==== Leaf =====
During Pre-U days, I like to collect leaves. Why? Because I felt that for a leaf to leave the tree she has been relying on for so long it takes a lot of courage. During the 3 years of Pre-U I was on very close terms with a guy. Not BGR kind but as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st girlfriend, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt -Jealousy. The sourness in the heart can't be describe byusing a lemon. It's like 100 rotten sour lemon. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for 2 mths. When they broke up, I hide my strong sense of happiness. But after a mth, he got together with another gal. I like him & I know he likes me. But why won't he pursue me? Since he love me why he doesn't want to make thefirst move? Whenever he had a new girlfriend, my heart would hurt. Time after time, my heart was hurt. I begin to suspect that this is a one sided love. But, If he don't like he, why does he treat me so well. It's beyond what you will normally do for afriend. Liking a person is very heart wrenching. I can know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figureout. You can't expect me a gal to ask him right? Despite that, I still want to be by his side. Care for him, accompany him, dote on him. Hoping that one fine day, he will come & love me. It's like waiting for his phone call every night, wanting him to send me sms. I know that no matter how busy he is, he will make time for me. Because of this, I waited for him. The 3 years were the hardest to go through & Ireally want to give up. Sometimes, I wonder should I continue waiting. The pain and hurt, the dilemma accompany me for 3 years. Till the end of my 3rd year, a 2nd year junior begins to go after me. Everyday he pursuit me relentlessly. From outright rejection to a point in time when I felt that I'm willing to let him have a small footing in my heart. He's like a warm & gentle wind, trying to blow a leaf away from the tree. In the end, I realized that I didn't want to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know this wind will bring this badly battered leave far away & better land. Finally I left tree, but the tree only smile & didn't ask me to stay. "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?


Episode 3 : "Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"

==== Wind ======

I like a gal called leaf. Because she's so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind. A wind that will blow her away. When I first met her, it was 1 mth after I transfer to the new school. I saw a petite person looking at my seniors & me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there.Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with gals there's jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there's a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she likes to look at him. One day, she didn't appear. I felt something amissed. I can't explain the feeling except it's a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears were in her eyes while he left. The next day, I saw her at her usual place,looking at him. I walked over and smiled to her. Took out a note & gave to her. She was surprised. She looked at me, smiled & accept the note. The next day, she appeared & pass me a note and left. Leaf's heart is too heavy and wind couldn't blow her away. It's not that leaf heart is too heavy. It because leaf never want to leave tree. I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me & accept my presents & phone calls. I know that the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me. Within 4 mths, I have declared my love for her no less than 20 times. Everytime, she will divert away from the topic. But I never give up. If I decide I want her to be mine, I will definitely use all means to win her over. I can't remember how many times I have declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping that she will agree to me my girlfriend. I didn't hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked "what are you doing? How come you didn't want to reply?" She said, "I'm nodding my head". "Ah?" I couldn't believe my ears. "I'm nodding my head" She replied loudly. I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place & press her door bell. During the moment when she opens the door. I hugged her tightly."Leaf's departure is because of Wind's pursuit, Or because Tree didn't ask her to stay"?

tired-busy-sleepy

what have I done for the past a week? hmm

Sunday-morning i woke up early at 9 am coz i had a volleyball praktis at 9 am (yeah rite)..but i was late..i had to wait for my flatmate to wake up and doing her thing blah blah and we arrived at teh rec center at 10 ish..we had to wait till the court is empty coz everyone was using the court to plap badminton..*sigh* i was practising with few friends who wwere the same boat as me to pplay volleyball..around 11 ish, we had the chance to play volleyball and guess what we played for 4-5 hours straight..damn..i was so damn tired by the time the game finished..we didnt even had a timeout..all we did was changing the court when the game ended..when ir eached home, i was so damn tired..both of my hands were swelling and i can barely moved my arms..i slept till 8 ish coz i was so damn tired..by the time i woke up was already 8ish and i felt so hungry...went to the kitchen to find some food..had a shower and went bck to sleep again untill 11 am in the morning..what the hell of the weekend :-)

Monday- i started work at IHC ( cant remember what it stand for) but it is a place for disablity kids..my work is working with them..takiing care of them and try to make them behave as i can ( i dont want them to misbehave)..some of them are hyperactive, down-sydrome, austhisms and yaddi yaddi yadda..enough of that..more important is i love working with them..they are so cute and charming..on the first day itself, i got a kiss frm one of the kids and he sed he likes me..owh that so sweet..he is charming..he likes to play rugbby with me (which reminded me like my little brother haziq)..i feel so good whenever im around them..sigh wish i can go there eveyday..

Tuesday- went to IHC for work again but this time i met few other kids who didnt come yesterday..they were just the same kids who i met yesterday excfept this one kid who screamed in the middle of the road bcoz my workmate was asking him to come inside the base..he refused to so he screamed..i can hear his voice very clearly coz he screamed so hard..he cant speak nor talk..poor him..but my workmate managed to pursuade him to come inside..good on him :-)

had a long talk with Chip yesterday nite..i havent talked to him for so long..can hardly remember when was the last time i spoke to him :-) we had a long catchup yesteryday..he sed he has been thinking and missing me..(owh how sweet of you, my dear)..thats what bestfriends are for..they never let you aside..they are always for you..they will always think about you even though you havent talked to him for so long..anyway just want to let you know chip, i do miss you a lot too even though i only sed "i miss you" but actually you were always on my mind and i miss you more too and (even though you sed you miss me more)..jz want to let you know that...take care muah2 X

argh..assingment..go to do and have to fnish it tonite..got things to do tomorrow..sigh..so tired..wish can go to bed now :-)

Relaku Pujuk-Spider

i know i am supposed to be studying rite now..its 4 am in the morning and im still awake to finish up my essay but instead i keep on listening to this song "relaku pujuk" by Spider..(one of the Malaysian band)..i dont know why but i just lurrrrrrrrrveeeeeeee this song..i seriously dont know why...i keep on repeating the song..

Relaku Pujuk-Spider

Ku dikejar bayang-bayang resah
Bila hatimu masih tak berubah
Enggan dipunya dan dipenjara
Belaian cintaku ini

Aku bukan lelaki yang tewas
Bisa mengambang walau ku ditolak
Biar diuji kanan dan kiri
Kau kan tetap ku miliki

Tiada lafaz yang lebih agung
Kalimah cintamu
Yang ku tunggu-tunggu
Biar jasadku yang menanggung
Permainan darimu
Relaku pujuk

Janganlah kau salahkan aku
Terus memburu menawan cintamu
Daku percaya sedikit masa
Kau kecundang akhirnya
Usahlah kau bersedih
Dihadapanmu aku hadir
Memadam resah dan curiga dari hatimu

Apakah kali ini
Bisa kau tolak dan berlari
Setelah aku menanamkan azimatku
Biar jasadku yang menanggung
Permainan darimu
Relaku pujuk

decisions!! Decisions!!

decisions!!!

hate doing decisionss!! but I somehwo have to do it..have to decide whats the best for me!! arghhhhhhhhhh bencinya..why is it to make good decisions have to involve emotions and heart??why cant it only involves pyshical..why why?????