things that will NOT be forgotten

Olivia Thomas. ANother of my friends has left on saturday. A friend who is really sincere and honest to me. She has been great to me. Her contribution and caringness will never be forgotten. She cares so much abt me and never ask anything in return. Since I only have few closest friends in my life, her departure has made a really huge impact in my life. Ever since Ninie left last year, I became close to her. We talked, bitched about and almost everything. She never asked anything in return and that what makes her a good soul :-)

She has became the 3rd bestfriend girlfrien I have ever had in New Zealand (after christy and Ninie). She has been there for me through out my joy and sorrow and never said bad things about me or anybodyelse. She will try her best to make me happy and listened to most of my stories (without interupting) :) Although we have promised not to cry at the airport, I know every tears that fell were worth it as she has been a great friend to me. I feel so lucky to have met a really good soul throught the journey of my life. She is one of the smallest people I know but that's just because she makes up for it in her BIG heart. Thank You for Everything and keep in touch. "Kelak Kamek datang Sarawak. Naik sampan 20sen. Kitak tunggu di sia ok?Sayau ka nuan";-)

Every thing that happen at the begining will have the end. Like death. Everyone is going to die. No one can ever run from it. Same as when you are introduced to a new things in life, you will end up getting hurt when it ends, rite?;-) hmm..well life is a bitch but it will not be a bitch when you know how to live it.

Well I live my life as it is. I go with the flow. Never planned what will happen to me until I have reached the stop of the journey. Then I will know what will happen to me next. I know it sounds ridicolous and unplanned but, thats how I live my life and I am perfectly happy with it. Well only few things but its nothing to be exposed of. I am still in the conquest of finding my perfect someone and there's no doubt about it. I mean, who is? unless they are totally do not believe "a thing call LOVE". Every now and then, people are looking for IT. BUt depends on how they find it. How they look for it. Sometimes IT hides under your nose or u are blinded by it. Never appreciate it until IT's gone. On the other hand, some have found THE ONE, depends how they classify "THE ONE". "The happines is like a butterfly, the more you grasp the more it will runs away". But then, have you heard the word call "FATE"? I do. I believe every person in this wolrld have their own fate, depending how they take it, how they live it. Some of them accept their fate willingly whereas some don't. Some never be thankful for everything they have been offered in life whereas some do. But I guess, that's how human lives their life every now and then. Obviously no big doubt about it :-)

I just realised, why can't I write my essay freely like I hav been writing in this blog? I always be stucked with words and sentences and my tenses hav been normally unperfect (well its not like its perfect here) but still I dont feel free when doing my assingmet. To tell the truth, I normally feel presure and stress when doing my essay. It like I need to please my lecturer with my FAKE writing all the time and I hate that. I want to be able to write freely and throw everything in a piece of paper. What I feel and what I need to say :-) I wish I can write in my essay like what I am writing rite now. No pressure, 100% freedom. No pleasing and no faking. I hate faking. Its like there is not honesty in everything you are doing. HOnesty huh? does it rings a bell?

Anyways, I have been listening to "delta goodrem-out of the blue" and the lyrics is totally awesome. I always like her (she's an Australian artist btw). SHe writes all her lyrics based on a real life. I really like that..that's sweet

Out of the BLue-Delta Goodrem

A new beginning
A new chapter of my life
Started the day
When I thought It could be my last
My eyes were wide shut but I hadn't given up
Just thought I'd be walking the world alone

Out of the blue
There I met you
Showed me a life I can't see without you
And theres just no way
That I can fight these emotions
Your energy running through me
Nobody can renew me like you

Out of the blue
Can this be true?

Family and friends they were my life
I wasn't one for butterflies
But you gave me love that I can't disguise
And there will be times when we're apart
I want you to know you're in my heart
Growing into a beautiful garden

No emotions
My whole body felt like ice
Needed to feel that the sun would shine my way
My world had turned to dust
But I had my faith and trust
Just thought I'd be walking the world alone

Family and friends they were my life
I wasn't one for butterflies
But you gave me love that I can't disguise
And there will be times when we're apart
I want you to know you're in my heart
Growing into a beautiful garden

Out of the blue
There I met you
Showed me a life I can't see without you
And theres just no way
That I can fight these emotions
Your energy running through me
Nobody can renew me like you