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JOB LOOKING-STRESSFUL

Job looking-why is it stressfull?

a. you dont get the job straight away

b. you have to go through rejections (and thats the hardest part to accept-even though you think yoo are qualify for the position)

c.you have to work hard to get the job you want

d.you have to beat other applicants( even though sometimes it amongs your workmates or friends)

e.you have to sell your skills-not just your qualifications and experiences too!!

f.why cant i just get the job i apply! urgh! hard and unfair!!

raya pics

tiffany & Co

 

What I Love About You

I love the way you look at me,
Your eyes so bright and blue.
I love the way you kiss me,
Your lips so soft and smooth.

I love the way you make me so happy,
And the ways you show you care.
I love the way you say, "I Love You,"
And the way you're always there.

I love the way you touch me,
Always sending chills down my spine.
I love that you are with me,
And glad that you are mine.

- Crystal Jansen -

Raya Time!

Raya! Selamat hari raya...kepada saudara serta saudari..( i cant remember the rest of the song!) everytime the raya comes, it will be more joyful to the kids than adults! Don't you agree? Kids get money and we adult(even teenager dont get the privilage anymore)

anyway raya is not about money but its about get together with family! thats more importan..sadly to say that yes raya this year will again will be in wellington! oh well sadly to say but life goes on aye? you reckon?

what am i goin to cook? i am goin to make rendang, kuah kacang and nasi impit.no kuih raya or anything.. i dont actually look forward to it except the ketupat and kuah kacang and rendang (beef) hm yummy food! i invited few close friends to come over..thats ok eh..

well then! selamat hari raya and maaf zahir dan batin@ muahs~xox

8/8/07

Afzul's Birthday

9/9

A nice day out with my baby. Went to warehouse on Lyall bay. It wa on the 2nd september. Was a nice day and we decided to walk around the beach and stop by at the warehosue Lyall Bay. Had yummy coffee and nice day..what more can you asked for?

we in heaven

Oh, thinking about all our younger years
There was only you and me
We were young and wild and free
Now nothing can take you away from me
We've been down that road before
But that's over now
You keep me coming back for more
Baby, you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heavenAnd love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to seeWe're in heaven
Oh, once in your life you find someone
Who will turn your world aroundPick you up when your feeling down
Now nothing could change what you mean to me
There's a lot that I could sayBut just hold me now
Cause our love will light the way
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms,
I'm finding it hard to believe
We're in heaven
And love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heartIt isn't too hard to see
We're in heavenI've been waiting for so long
For something to arrive
For love to come along
Now our dreams are coming trueT
hrough the good times and the badI'll be standing there by you
Baby you're all that I want
When you're lying here in my arms
Im finding it hard to believe
We're in heavenAnd love is all that I need,
And I found it there in your heart
It isn't too hard to see
We're in heaven

y

y breaking up is hard and y cant the pain just go away??? i hate being in this miserable feelings still and i hate waking up feeling useless and my food dont taste the way it used to be. i felt like going on back to the circle where i was and it seems like never ended!! Ya allah...i need to move on from this misery. i need my life back...

~hmm`

leaf's departure is because of wind's pursuit or because tree didnt ask her to stay?

i hate it.

i hate the pain im having right now. i hate where things will not be the same. i hate thinking about him everyday n night. i hate things dont go my way. i hate tears coming out from my eyes everytime i wake up and before i go to sleep. i hate this miserable feelings. i hate everything just not going to be the same. i hate i cant hold him anymore. i hate to see the tears in his eyes. i hate my life right now. i hate pretty much things that around me right now. hate it hate it hate it. more importantly i hate the way i dont hate him. the fact that i still love and miss him, always...

pain pain go away

this week has been the cruelliest week ever.my heart is so broken. im so guttered. i hate breaking up. i hate goodbyes. i hate everything with the word "end". i hate it. i hate it so much. things wll never be the same you know. even though you said, yes it will bethe same. no its not. its different. it will be different forever. i cant bear pain on my shoulder. i hate it. i hate everything rite now.

march 24th 2006-november 17th 2006

memory

Promise me

Masihkah kau mengerti lagi
Yang kasihku tetap berdiri sepi
bersinar dinurani
berlingar di selubuk hati

Walau ku pernah jangkakan
yang kita tak mungkin abadi
hatiku berlinang
teringatkan janji bersemi

ku perlukan hidupku
kau perlukan teruskan hidupmu

bahagialah selalu

janji lah padaku yang kau ceria selalu
janjilah untuk ku
---------------------------------------------

I hope you still understand
that my love still standing quietly
still shining in my soul
still moving in my heart

Even though I know we will never be forever
My heart cry thinking the promises we make

I need my life
You need to go on with your life

Be happy always

Promise to me you will be happy always
Promise to me

ketcha.com.my

penat, stress sume ada skang......arghhhh bencikk...essay due satu besok, satu monday next week and test on friday then yeahaaaa cuti seminggu..nak wat ape eh cuti seminggu? tidooooo lah ape lagi..hik hik hik..

weather has been crap.. rainning, drizzless, haily..end up sume orgg sakit this winter...smalam the wind omigosh..sejuk giler cam dlm airbatu..so damn freaking cold man..felt like didnt want to go out at all (but had to go anyways..)

hmmm what shud i do today> essay..need another 1000+ words to finish (and that includes conculusion, reference and introduction). Felt funny to myself..i started writing essay w/out introduction...understood the question but cant start writing about the introduction...heheheheh...oh well...at least the main points are there...so no kisah lar!

nak mee goreng mamak.......

omiggosh..so hard when you craving for the things u cannot get e.g nasi lemak at mamak stall an also mee goreng mamak..wah so sedap..so hard you live in overseas but theres no such as mamak stall here excpt burger king and mcdonald and fish and chips..bosan lah..dun want to eat that..sick of it..fast food all the times..so hardddddd

been going back to skol..so susahlah...my brain is full of infomation..being crowded....too much loading..keep loading blah blah..im talkiing crap now..time for bed..got discussion and work tomoro..(work> bosanlah)

This is such a sweet song to listen. It has the sweetest lyrics i have ever listened to.


Wondering the streets, in a world underneath it all
Nothing seems to be, nothing tastes as sweet
As what I can't have
Like you and the way that you're twisting your hair
round your finger
Tonight I'm not afraid to tell you
What I feel about you.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
and cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will

Forgive me if I stutter
From all of the clutter in my head
Cuz I could fall asleep in those eyes
Like a water bed
Do I seem familiar, i've crossed you in hallways
a thousand times, no more camouflage
I want to be exposed, and not be afraid to fall.

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you

If I could dim the lights in the mall
And create a mood I would
Shout out your name so it echos in every room
I would

That's what I'd do, That's what I'd do to get through to you

I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
And cannon ball into the water
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
You always want what you can't have
But I've got to try
I'm gonna muster every ounce of confidence I have
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will
For you I will

life is full of suprises

i have not been updating my blog for nearly 2 months now. most of the peoples who have been accessing my blog have been complaining about it. well here goes..

since i got back from malaysia on the 7th of january 2006, ive countinued working at my workplace. apparently got homesick and also flu and fever due to the change of weather. but because i only took leave until the 7 th, i had to go back the next day on the 8th with having flu and fever. It was good to see all the familiar faces again. Hemi; the boy i have been looking after came and see at work. I managed to catch up with him even though i feel disguisted to myself. BUt i felt teribbly bad after he left because he left with feeling angry and dissapointed because i was pushing him away as he was being nice to me and trying to make me laughing and being his usual self. but because i felt horribly disguisted, i pushed him away. But i managed to talk to him when i saw him agian the next day. To explain to him that i was happy to see him. I wasnt angry at him. But because he cant accept rejection and disspoinment( he has been letting down in his life, he feels all the bad things that happens is because of him).

So my life has been good and as usual, things have been ups and downs and stuff but i managed to control the problems that ive been having. everything you experience tend to make u stronger,aight? shit happens mostly at work place; hemi got into trouble, staffs being shitty and management change drastically. I was nearly going to hand in my resigning letter but because i still care about the place, i ended up to stay. One because of hemi(yes he is such a special boy with lots of great skils), second the kids and most important i love the place a lot. i put my heart into the place. Kemp st has been like my second home. i spend most of my time there than my home.

uni just started in end of feb. things grat..back to school. assigments and tests. well usual stuff nothing change. still the same old things where you have to do research and paperwork. the paper i am taking at the moments is about advocacy about young children which is really interesting.

i have moved house in end of feb. finally i got a proper place to live. ive been living at rachel's hse for a month or so til i get my proper place. i still love my old place but im falling in love with my new place. everything is just so cosy and just nice. i dont need a big house or a lavish stuff to have but as long as i have everything that i need is there, then its enough for me.

so basically thats the sum up of my life at the moment. I still have new things to do everyday e.g to sass out Hemi's stuff, uni, holiday programme and yeah my own life. I still cant see which path should i follow as i cant see what i will be doing in the future. life is such a full pf suprises! you got to have present everyday! you never know what present you will get until you open the package. so yeah just enjoy the package til then!