Update

I realized I haven't properly updated my blog for the past 2 years. Wow have time gone that fast??!!! What have been doing for the past 2 years since the last time I updated my blog? The last time I wrote I got married-trying to continue my studies. Which I did further my studied last year. I got a postgraduate diploma in Teaching Adult Literacy and Numeracy. I passed the course but haven't got the cert yet. I haven't been to the ceremony-will go at the end of the year 2014. Another thing has happened-I moved out from Wellington, New Zealand. Yes people, I have moved country. Shocked indeed! Josh and I decided to leave New Zealand mainly because we both weren't happy with our life there. The Economy was so bad that jobs have been cutting down, friends left, tax gone up and renting has become hard! So after many many decisions been decided, we have to go. First we have decided to go to OZ but their economy hasn't been that great either, so we have decided to be back to Malaysia. Josh got a job here on the next month we got home-which was great considering he is a foreigner. I thought it will be hard for him to score a job considering but he was the first one to get a job! As for me I waited until he was settled. I finally got a position at Oxford Press (the publishing company). The first ever publishing company I have worked with-well first ever proper job I have got in Malaysia. I chose to work in an international company because I prefer to work with multicultural races-( I am a malay, so I know how malays people work). Any who I started in June (last month) and so far it has been cruisy. I am looking forward for the busy time comes!
As for my private life, I am still losing weight. Oh did I mention I was trying to lose weight. Of course I didn't, I haven't updated this blog for 2 years! Well I am on the verge of losing another 2 kgs after I have dropped about 28 kgs since July 2012! It's tough, I know~but I somehow manage it. Courage and determination are the key words to success! I struggled through thick and thin of not having food in the middle of the night, no sweet stuffs and no bad carbohydrates either! Exercise is also the main key that contribute to may weight lost. But of course it comes with a price. Price that I don't even want to think about it. I try to forget as hard as I can but I still can't. It's like when you lose some, you gain some. But I gained something else. That cost my marriage. Price that I have to face everyday and it is not a nice price. Anyway I try to move forward and not think about it. People say the show must go on and I am lucky enough that my husband still stays by me even though I neglected him for a while. Yes you can say I am one lucky bitch! I sure am-no doubt about it. But do I still chase the impossible?? What do I really want? I know I can't have both-I must choose one. I have him in front of me and I don't want to lose him. But on the other hand, I still chasing the impossible. The impossible I can't have and I must forget.